Not Done Yet But Redrawing A VERY Old Piece

made for a moot, lowkey love this

i truly Aspire to be like you youre great keep it up. great beatleing you have a certian je ne se quois i need

You don't aspire to be like me. One day I will be 40 years old, alone in a decrepit flat, writhing on the floor in front of a dozen burning candles and a 9 foot poster of Paul McCartney which utterly dominates the tiny bedroom. No family, no friends, only Goddess lighting the way.

why does no one get it </3

always thinking about john

this is my everything

vampire au beatles! they are.. just regular humans but can suck blood (kinky!)

john and paul have a deeper connection, both being half vamps and both endorsing in homoerotic vampire rituals (sucking the other’s blood, cannibalizing the other, telepathically connecting with each other indefinitely.. all the good stuff ! )

good point

i could fix him

why does waiting for your favourite fic to get updated feel like agony

My saint

i’m never recovering

I empathize with John so much cause I relate so much to that feeling of wanting to be the most important person in someone's life.

It's not healthy, not realistic, it's not noble, it's inherently selfish, but it comes from a wound inside. It comes from insecurity and low self-esteem.

The closest thing I can compare it to is when you're a child and you have a best friend, you feel so close that you almost feel like one person. Nothing ever compares to that. Before you fully develop your individuality and sense of self completely.

It doesn't really make any logical sense. And it may not make sense to anyone else but it's clear that John and Paul ran into a problem where John must have felt very rejected (whether it was a real rejection or not) and I honestly believe that John feeling like he wasn't the center in Paul's life anymore was enough for him to feel completely rejected.

It's tragic but an unfortunate result of this kind of mindset. It feels so shameful. You feel so worthless and like a failure. You feel like a bad person and you kind of know that you are? You feel confused and feel like you've been thrown away by the person. But that's not true, it doesn't make any sense, it really IS all in your own head. But the traumatized child part of you doesn't understand that. Obviously I'm not trying to excuse any behaviour.