Bro. Idk How It’s Taken Me This Long To Make A Tumblr But I Finally Did It!

Chapter 23: Revives Me

Hello! I’m sorry the last time I posted a chapter was OVER A MONTH ago but I bring penance in the form of the longest chapter of On The Rocks, a 13k epic.

This chapter has the same TWs as OTR generally, but specifically I will note it contains suicidal ideation, references to fresh scars, and explicit dealing in alcoholic withdrawal and recovery.

In addition to @rbkzz my wonderful beta, I also want to give a huge thank you to @artsyunderstudy, but you need to read the chapter to find out why. 😉

Without further ado, Chapter 23: Revives Me

@alexalexinii @asocialpessimist @aristocratic-otter @arthurkko @stitchy-queerista @skee3000 @whatevertheweather @wellbelesbian @emjaydellyone @edenalix @emeryhall @run-for-chamo-miles @roomwithanopenfire @raenestee @angelsfalling16 @thewholelemon @twinkle-twinkle-up-above @theearlgreymage @you-remind-me-of-the-babe @youarenevertooold @ic3que3n @iamamythologicalcreature @ileadacharmedlife @orange-peony @palimpsessed @prettygoododds @pacey-bunce-loves-joey @drowninginships @diamondmeadow @fiend-for-culture @facewithoutheart @hushed-chorus @kaaaaaaarf @lonleyhumanbeing @letraspal @cosmicalart @confused-bi-queer @cutestkilla @beastmonstertitan @bookish-bogwitch @ninemagicks @nausikaaa @nightimedreamersworld @nextblood @messofthejess @monbons @mooncello

no matter your gender it’s gay to be attracted to me I don’t make the rules

little print inspired by ✨🗡️♠️Simon & Baz ❤️‍🔥🎻🧛🏼‍♂️

sword, wings, and tail for Simon ✨ matches, violin, and fangs for Baz

starlight, magic, and love for the two of them ❤️‍🔥

So glad I get to experience homosexual desire. One life and thank god I'm not straight

AO3 Stats & Notifications

One (1) person said this would be interesting so here's a post about what AO3 authors can see about their works and what they get notified for.

What authors get notified for:

comment on a fic

EDIT on a comment (some of u edit like 16 times and it is very sweet. I get an email every time)

Response to a comment

Request to join a collection (note: don't do this. collection owners have a lot of power over fic and should only be used for specific reasons and not to create a collection of fic you enjoy. that's what bookmark collections are for)

Gift

Related work notification

Daily kudos email. The daily kudos email shows all the kudos of the previous day in an order that makes sense to the ao3 database and not to human eyes.

The only bit of this that is clickable is the title of the fic. I can click into the profile of a nice user if I navigate to the fic and then go to the bottom where the kudos are displayed.

Things authors do not get notified for:

subscription to a fic or author

ending a subscription

deleting a comment

creating a bookmark

a fic view (if you visit a fic twenty times, no one knows that but your isp and your browser history and you)

Now here's what authors can see about their fic under the cut because more screenshots

The first thing an author can see is something everyone can see, and that's who left a public bookmark

If you click on the number next to bookmarks you can see this. And each username is clickable to see the other things they have bookmarked or written (side note, this is the best way to find other fic to read)

The author can also see the note a reader leaves on a public bookmark.

Please note that authors don't get a notification for this and I don't look at them (screenshot proving me a liar) so you aren't guaranteed to be seen by the author. If you like that last nice user want the author to know it stuck with them, you gotta leave a comment.

But there are also private bookmarks! And private bookmarks are, as the name sounds like, private. However. On the statistics page for each fic the author gets a little more information.

Here is the statistics page:

This can be selected to by year and the numbers will change EXCEPT user subscriptions. User subscriptions shows the current state of subscriptions. And since authors don't get a notification of number go up or down, they won't know when it's changed unless they are tracking it. Additionally there is no way to see who has subscribed. So you can subscribe to whoever you like or unsubscribe at any time and that is between you, the ao3 database, your ISP tracking your history, and your email client. But the author doesn't know. You are released from any social obligation to stay subscribed or any embarrassment you might have. Go forth.

See? Here is 2024 and it has the same number of users.

Also fun fact, the word count shows fic FINISHED in that year. I wrote a 90k fic that straddled 2024 and 2025 and the full word count for that is tracked on the 2025 page.

anyway back to info.

I can scroll down on this and get a bit more information on each fic.

Here I can see the number of people who have subscribed to a fic - but not who they are. I can also see the TOTAL NUMBER of bookmarks including private bookmarks.

Compare contrast:

The public listing shows 47 bookmarks, the statistics page listing shows 127. On average, most fics have about half of their bookmarks private.

I can't see who made those extra bookmarks, just that they exist.

Also on the statistics page the comments are shown as the number of threads instead of the total number. I always reply to comments so the thread count is a more accurate reflection of how many people left a comment.

So to sum up, what authors can see if they investigate:

username on a public bookmark and any note left

the total number of bookmarks

the total number of subscriptions to themselves right now

the number of subscriptions on a fic

hits

Anybody else got that Evergiven sized writers block

“One kiss, and you think the world is upside down.”

“Two kisses,” I say. And I take him by the back of his neck.

—From Chapter 62, Carry On by Rainbow Rowell.

So beautiful, I want this as tiles or a bandana

@iamamythologicalcreature mentioned seeing this snowbaz print I made in blue so here it is :) 🩵🤍💙

I was talking to my friend who isn’t familiar with CO about Baz and I said “on all levels except physical I am him,” and then showed her the cover art of WS. She, without hesitation, said “all levels including physical, you look like him” and it made me so stupidly happy my life feels complete.