~Wieiad~

Exactly.

You're not ⭐ing yourself your paying back a loan of c@lories you borrowed from your future self now it's simply time to pay it back 🎀

~Wieiad~

10•20•24

Breakfast:

• 27g Mini Blueberry Protein Bar - 104c

• 3 Unsalted Rice Cakes - ~125c

• 12g Chopped Dates - 39c

• 31g Caramel Rice Cakes - 119c

• Vitamins - 100c

Total: 487c

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I broke my fast right before I went to sleep.. I feel like maybe I could’ve lasted until this morning but my family has a history of heart attacks and my heart wasn’t acting like it’s usual self so I didn’t want to risk anything. Once I’m on my own it won’t matter but while I’m with my parents I’d prefer not to traumatize them if they even care enough lol.. I didn’t do too bad with the cal intake though, so ig there’s something kind of positive to think about? - and I’ve started another fast but I’m hanging out with a friend tomorrow and food might be around * . * Hopefully I can completely avoid eating but idk if I’ll be able to fast for as long as I’d like to :c I’ll l bring a can of green beans or something else low cal just in case so I hopefully don’t cause any suspicion. My friend used to have an 3d so she’s already pretty aware of some issues I have but I don’t want her to know the full extent of much I’m restricting myself.. but besides the food stuff- tomorrow should be fun. I’m going to help her move some plants and other stuff to her new house and we haven’t seen each other in a few weeks so we’ll have a decent amount to catch each other up on✨

(Side note: Caramel rice cakes are pretty good. I avoided them for a while but I got some a few days ago and they might be a new safe food for me now, I haven’t decided yet.. Cals aren’t great but it’s the lowest it can possibly be so I have to deal with it or avoid it again)

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I’m done with my family. I’m done with this world. I can’t kill myself yet but I know that’ll be how I die.

it’s never ending 🥲

whats on your mind?

Real

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𝐼 𝒿𝓊𝓈𝓉 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝒷𝑒 𝒶 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓇𝒾𝑜𝓊𝓈 𝒻𝒾𝑔𝓊𝓇𝑒

𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝑜𝑜𝒹𝓈

I wanted to binge and then i was thinking about how ill be hungry after anyway. Like after i eat it tahes a cuple minutes maby hours and im hungry again. No point in eating now if I'll fell the same as i would if i havent two hours later.

food is just a bandage on something that will never heal.

flat stomach thinspo

i want my ribs to show like this…

you can’t tell me this wouldn’t make all my problems go away