Between Us Fans, I Have A Question:

A big reason I'm obsessed with Eddie in Kiseki: Dear to Me is because he is openly prepared to die for and with Chen Yi.

I doubt the show will touch on it, but the immense guilt Chen Yi must feel that Eddie willingly followed him down this deadly path instead of being a normal teenager who goes to high school would be a good reason he doesn't allow himself to reciprocate Eddie's feelings. Because Chen Yi knows Eddie is a smart boy, yet he decided to not go to school . . . since he loves Chen Yi.

Eddie chose to enter into a life where death is around every corner, and he did so because of his devotion to Chen Yi.

And Chen Yi is constantly confronted by that.

Chen Yi tries to nudge Eddie in a different direction each time, but Eddie refuses to leave Chen Yi's side.

So Chen Yi calls Eddie brother. He reminds them both that the bond between them is synthetic. Eddie doesn't have to abide by it. He could leave.

Because he has to know Eddie isn't there to be his brother. He knows why Eddie is offering his life in exchange for as much time as possible with Chen Yi. Even if his life is short, he will have spent it next to Chen Yi. So even if Chen Yi genuinely has feelings for Eddie, to act on them would mean to permanently cement Eddie's life with his where the only outcome seems to be a young death.

And that's a huge burden to carry. Someone's life has been benevolently laid before him without hesitation, yet he desperately wants that person to live.

Even if it means a life without him.

(221107) cheek pinching wars 🤏

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Lost in the Deep Blue

When we left our red- and blue-coded boys, they were exchanging their colors and emotions like it was easy peasy lemon squeezy.

Well...until they realized they caught feelings and questioned their entire lives, so now they are seeking comfort in their own colors trying to sort out those pesky emotions.

And they are struggling! After a night together where Team asked Win for exclusivity yet refused to commit to a defined relationship, both boys are lost (at sea, but trying to be an anchor for each other).

Team is devoid of color much like he was at the beginning of episode two after speaking to his mother, and Win is losing his color as well, which is difficult to do when his closet only features blue.

And the little blue Win does have left, he gives to Team before they leave the safe space.

*Win fixes the tie symbolizing order and submission while Team looks fully in the mirror representing his awareness of what Win is doing to him, yet Win does not look in the mirror until the end because he hasn't faced the truth of how much he truly cares for Team, which we heard in the preview for next week

Win's brother, Wan, is also struggling with the absence of color, but luckily he has Tul unknowingly providing him some blue (and support).

Team is also showing up in small ways to support Win that Win seems unaware of.

*the label on the tie and the bottom of Win's shoes are red

They won't see each other throughout the day (no practice) or that night (Win is going home, and Team is staying with Pharm), so neither can find their way back to their natural element.

*You might be thinking "they are just sitting in a different class" and "Win is outside, so trees are green," but this is the same classroom as the day before when they decided to sit in the red chairs (Manow talking in the red chairs while the green ones are in the background), and Team sits in the green when he is conflicted (the day he skipped classes).

*And Win sits in the blue unless he, too, is conflicted

Dean comes for Pharm, which leaves Team on his own. He is still reeling from the conversation he had with his mother and with Win the night before yet won't see Win at all, so he goes where he can find blue.

But his anxiety grows the longer he stays. He can't concentrate because everywhere he looks, he is reminded of all the things he wants to forget - Win's absence and Ton's incident.

Then we see the transition from Team's red into the blue through the pool rope as his anxiety and stress overwhelms him and he experiences a cramp

*Some of the ropes are colored this way while others are red and yellow. The colors serve a purpose. The red indicates that the wall is within a certain length, and most likely will be the shallow part of the pool, while the blue denotes the deeper portion of the pool. We haven't seen this transition from the red into the blue until Team becomes increasingly distraught because he is entering a deeper state of emotions

Which causes him to sink to the bottom.

Team is drowning in the deepest part of the pool

Everything Team has been trying to avoid is now dragging him down into this deep dark blue (depression). Win will save him from the pool, but Win can't save Team from the issues he keeps bottled up, and Win himself, through the previews, seems likely to become one of those issues.

I mean this with my whole being in the gentlest way possible, Team.

Okay, so. Someone mentioned this, and I agreed so much that I had to talk about it. Thinking back about what I said in this post, not only has he figured out what he wants, and it being clear to him, (as someone mentioned) he also sees that Win needed just as much comfort as Team did. From what I've seen so far from these two, Win it much more affectionate than Team is. It's not to say that Team isn't, it's just that Win is much more comfortable expressing his affection than Team his currently. Aside from sex, we've only see Team really kiss him on one occasion and it was a quick one. The other times we see any sort of affection come from Team is during the many nights that he spends with Win, and again, it's mostly Win comforting Team to help him sleep.

I think this kiss is not only making things clear to Team about how he feels, but it's also him comforting Win in the only way that he knows how to, in this moment. Sure, hugging can do the same thing, but it's not as meaningful as what Win does for him on nights that he has nightmares and can't sleep. Win is practically experiencing his own nightmare and the only way Team can think to calm him down, and to keep him from making himself sick with worry is to physically show him. He is sad, he is upset, he is scared, but he is also acknowledging that Win, too, is sad, he is upset, and he is scared. So this makes Team feel even worse for causing Win to feel this way, and he understands more now just how much he really means to Win, so he kisses him.

It's such a simply act, but it's such a powerful one because Win didn't have to ask for him to do it, he didn't have to initiate it, Win didn't have to be the only expressing affection and emotions for the other. And I think, I think Team is lowkey apologising for not realising it sooner, Win's feelings.

TXT’S KINKS [+ media]

Warnings: (mdni) smut, links in bold are literal porn, unbolded is videos/content of txt members, via Twitter & YouTube, degradation, just my opinions

(A/n💌; -Tw: degradation- MOMMY WANTS YOU TO SEND HER YOUR HORNY THOUGHTS AFTER READING THIS YOU DIRTY WHORE!!! And if you don’t you’ll be in trouble, Thank you 🥰<3)

✿ Yeonjun —

Definitely has a choking kink I believe, for multiple reasons and no one can change my mind

Just loves to be degraded and feel like an absolute S.L.U.T

And never feels shame. This man has not a single drop of self pride when it comes to sexual desires and acts

Which moves us on to this video of him HUMPING A PILLOW ON VLIVE

Not even trying to be subtle, he’s just a dumb little pillow fucker

Literally anything that makes him feel good, he’ll fuck himself on it

🙌🏼Whore.

Just give him anything to hump his sensitive little cock on and he’ll cum so quickly :(

✿ Soobin —

Ok so some people think Soobin is a dom

And since he’s the leader, he’s obviously going to have to be a little authoritative

But he literally said on weekly idol he’s not the type to take the lead in a relationship

& would be dragged around oskmansidks

He said he would agree to whatever his s/o says???

Sub!soobin is real I rest my case

Also I’m hoping he has an oral fixation bc he has the perfect lips for it

(Oh and definitely has a size kink)

✿ Beomgyu —

Dumb baby’s got a monster cock

And he doesn’t know how to use it :((

Fr though I never would have guessed Gyu was so ✨hung✨

And that’s just him soft??? Imagine it hard? Omg

Feel like he’d be an emotional fucker honestly

As in probably cries when he cums <3 •#u#•

And says I love you :( - ok now I’m getting soft

He’d definitely be into edging or thigh riding bc he’s so sensitive

✿ Taehyun —

Another big dicked dumb ass.

Help the innocent baby he doesn’t know how to use it 🥺🥺

Has a corruption kink (receiving...if that’s a thing?)

Wants to feel all pure and innocent in the beginning

Then turns into your ruined little cummy covered toy <3

Would also definitely be a brat

Unfortunately he’s such a bitch that the only form of punishment he can stand is overstimulation

Oh, and being tied up.

Plz tie this whore up

✿ Hueningkai —

He LOVES to be talked down to

Like in a “sweet” but actually condescending way

Gaslight him.

Manipulate him.

Make him cry until he feels utterly pathetic and useless

Then fuck him like he’s an actual object

It’s either that or compliment him until he becomes a shy little mess

and cums in his pants untouched :3 <3

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A/n💌;I’m sorry I couldn’t find an even amount of media for all the members, it’s just what I had saved/in mind - Cleo

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about me :

♡ 20 (cancer / horse)

♡ any pronouns

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♡ i enjoy all ships and all dynamics

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BEOMGYU ↻ THAT HAND THING 

Team just, like, let's Win drive his car around and then leaves the keys with him, like, use my car, I trust you so much with probably the most expensive object in my life, also I love you, haha run away

The trust this silly boy has.

The true romance is what happens when middle child syndrome meets serious anxiety and sparks fly.