FOUR SEASONS 🌞🍁🌷❄️

i think people tend to forget just how young jeon yeseul actually is. it pains me to think about just how much she has gone through at her age - all the manipulation, gaslighting, obsession, literal physical abuse she endured from her vile boyfriend.

but more than that, it’s the fact that she has to wake up every day and have to pretend in front of her peers and classmates that she is the usual bright, cheery, and beautiful girl that they see her as. that she doesn’t go to sleep every night hating herself, wondering what she did to deserve all this pain, and ultimately trying to hold on to the hope that she might escape from it one day.

i think back to her scene with jo yebeom in the study room, when he said she was a sight for sore eyes. i also wonder how many times her boyfriend has called her beautiful, relegating her to only that, undermining her intelligence, her kindness, her compassion… and how she always has to assert to other people the fact that she is in a relationship. maybe she’s been told she only has worth when her name is attached to a man.

the problem with yeseul is that nobody sees beyond her looks, so they automatically think that she has it good. and she has had to carry that burden alone all her life.

at least, not until kang sol A. not until han joon hwi. not until professor yang jong hoon. my heart absolutely breaks watching yeseul’s pivotal scenes with these characters. she has a lot of memorable ones with them, but i look back to these three the most:

when yeseul praises joon hwi’s cross-examination skills and he gives her a whole new perspective on what working in law means. in that conversation, he says something like, “i have to tell the truth if i want to work in law”, and later on in the courtroom when she says the exact same thing. in fact, it was so desperate when she said “i really want to work in law one day” and she understood that this one lie would haunt her for the rest of her life. just like everyone else, yeseul looks up to joon hwi, but this is the first time we see it actually being manifested. not only was this scene a turning point for yeseul, it was also important for joon hwi, especially when he got a little bit flustered when yeseul called him ‘awesome’: we see a more human side of him, and his principles about law and life become more solidified. i like to think this somehow inspired yeseul in some way as well.

when sol A seeks yeseul out in the bathroom and she asks her: “what do i do now?” it’s so poignant and so devoid of hope that instead of offering empty words, sol A decides to envelop her in a hug instead, as if to say - let me hold you together while you threaten to fall apart. you are not alone in this.

and for yang jong hoon, it just has to be the scene where he wears the sunglasses in the courtroom, as she did in his classroom. given that he was not allowed to speak to yeseul leading up to the trial whatsoever, and the fact that yang jong hoon himself is a man of few words towards his students, regarding them in a more impersonal manner (at least upfront, because we all know how deeply he actually cares about all of them), i want to believe that the act of wearing those glasses was an unspoken promise to yeseul that he will protect her - and i suppose that was a promise that he kept by the end of episode 8, when he finds her in a panic state after what happened to her boyfriend.

i know this was a very long thinkpiece, but the tl;dr is that i absolutely love jeon yeseul so much and i think she is very strong, courageous, unapologetically bubbly and kind, and everything in between. more importantly, she is a woman of honor whose skills are severely underestimated. i want to believe there is more in store for her in the upcoming episodes, and i cannot wait for her girlboss revenge era. i just hope her 'girlboss revenge moment’ won’t come at the expense for the softness that she is defined by, the softness that she is known for.

tw: derealization/depersonalization

i don't feel like i belong in my own body. i look around and everything feels out of focus and too sharp at the same time. are these my hands? are those my legs? who's touching me? am i touching me? the cloudless sky looks like a badly rendered video game; the foggy dusk drive feels more estranged and comforting than my own home. i'm walking down the stairs to get some water; it's dark; i feel dead. i'm floating around like a spectre; a phantom inside a body of flesh and bone. my skin is crawling; it, too, wishes i wasn't in it. someone asks me a question. "what?" it comes out more like a hum underwater. "have you been listening to me?" no.

How sharing bed with gojo satoru feels like

Day and Night.

Encanto is a lovely movie! And there’s so much great fanart of the characters interacting, so here’s one from me: Luisa and her dad bonding over piano music!

i always feel a bit bad when i want to like something but it has x39/x9/1000/100 notes or likes, idk how to explain it entirely but it makes me feel like im ruining something which is perfect, it already has a perfect number of likes what more could i add? but at the end of the day i still do like it, maybe to have it within my vicinity or im adding more popularity for it to reach more people or im sadistic that way, who will know? no one. not even me.

If Shoko and Gojo had noticed Geto spiralling.

Sort of a rough continuation of the previous set of drawings on what would have happened had Geto called them.

little TRC headcanons

Adam has a terrible sense of direction. He gets his left and right mixed up if he’s not paying attention and it irritates the HELL out of him

Gansey HAS to write everything down. He can’t remember it other wise. Monmouth is filled with post its, some are duplicates. His school notes are practically the lecture word for word

Blue has a bad habit of standing on her toes when she orders food. It’s built from when she was too short to see over the counter and she can’t shake it (i get so say this bc i do this and i’m 5 feet tall)

Ronan flips over his cups when he puts them in the sink. His mom used to make him do it because he was really bad about putting half full glasses in the sink and milk would spoil

Declan uses an exfoliant on his hands after someone mentioned his pencil callous after a handshake.

Henry is the kind of person to use half a bottle of ketchup, forget he has ketchup, and buy more at the store. There are three open bottles in the fridge.

Noah is terrified of almost all bugs. It’s the only thing he and Ronan really argue about; to kill or not to kill.

Adam drums his fingers when he thinks

Ronan is a foot tapper. An against the metal leg of a desk foot tapper. It’s the no. 1 reason teacher don’t like him, despite his general Ronan-ness

Gansey can’t keep a cactus alive. He has not idea why. Logically, they are the easiest plant to care for, but he keeps killing them. ronan says it’s a metaphor

noah chronically loses pen caps. it’s the closest gansey has ever come to pure rage towards him

henry is unreasonably good with photoshop. he uses it for both good and evil

Jujutsu Kaiesen - manga wallpaper