Di[e]ce Appreciation Week | Day 4: Love

AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK

Day 20: SET C - “Blank Stare”

Did you know? Apparently Nobodies come back into being the way they remember themselves. I think you probably do, after all the teardrops are gone from your cheeks.

So, apparently the truest vision I have of me is bleeding. I’d laugh about the irony, if it didn’t hurt so much. I keep thinking about how fast the wound scarred over last time. No such luck now, I think it’s getting infected … again. Weird, to be back in a human body, only to realize how frail it really is.

But I don’t think I have to tell you that. Still sleeping, no sign of waking up. Only because you saved me. Again.

I… well.

I know you don’t want to hear this, but … I really wish you didn’t do it. Save me. You should have just left me in the darkness. You made so many friends, and they miss you. And I … just don’t deserve to be here in your place. They’re friendly to me of course, saying any friend of yours is a friend of theirs and saying it doesn’t matter what I …Even Roxas and Xion. I can see her face now, you know.

I … I’m so sorry. And I can’t even get myself to say it. I can’t open my mouth whenever any of them are around.

I’m glad they gave us a place to stay here in the castle. With strangers living where our parents’ houses used to be, I really wouldn’t have any other idea of where to go. But it hurts to be here, in Radiant Garden. I can barely stand to look outside a window. It’s all so full of memories.

Of you. Of us.

I miss you, so much.

It hurts.

I wish I could have at least talked to you, even if just for a little bit. It’s been so long. And even longer since we talked as friends.

I know I’ve said it a hundred times, but I’m so sorry. For everything I did. I don’t know if you can hear me and I don’t know if you’d even want to listen to my side of the story. It’s not an excuse, I know that. I’m not even sure why I told you at all. I … it just hurts so much.

They tried to bully me into joining them for some ice cream again. But I can’t leave you alone. I can’t. This is the only thing I can do for you. Staying by your side, making sure you’re not alone.

Remembering.

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Di[e]ce Appreciation Week | Day 2: Focus

haruki opening pandoras box trying to focus on all the information overflowing his blank mind

Oops, akusaimonth is already over and I only finished one picture out of the four picture set for the first prompt.

@AkuSaiMonth 2023 Prompt: Stars ID in alt. Bingo card under the cut! (1/5)

The birth of stars …

This is based on that one first anniversary James Webb picture and inspired by this artwork by @prinnay! And I just realized she also made an (absolutely amazing) drawing based on that same James Webb picture...! Check it out!

My bingo card for this year:

I have 4 out of 5 drawings planned out ... let's see how many i can get out in the two weeks left

@laytonbrothersbirthdaybash Day 2: Headcanon

I like the idea, that while most adults had a bit of a difficult time dealing with little Alfendi, Uncle Randall got along with him incredibly well and the two of them spent a lot of time together. On one of these stays Alfendi found the (copy of the?) mask, which Randall hid, but couldn't quite bring himself to throw away. Randall didn't tell him what it meant then.

Even as adults, Alfendi gets along better with Randall than with his father. After the incident, Randall visits Alfendi in the hospital and finally tells him what happened at Monte D'Or that time.

Most of these sketches are from 2015, from when I first had that idea. Which means I procrastinated making the final two drawings for FIVE YEARS. But hey, better late than never.

Here's a little teaser WIP of my piece for @eternalbondzine!!!

This is after the first layer of pastel chalk. There will be at least one more and then a final detail layer in chalk and pencils (and maybe markers)! I'm a little in love and very excited to finish this piece!! <3

Koujaku Week: ｢tattoo｣ // ｢scars｣

My probably only entry for Koujaku Week! Everything about his tattoos fascinates me, from their symbolism to everything they stand for in the game/anime. Also, Koujaku is an amazing character and he deserves to be happy.

Photos taken by my little sister Joey (Edited by me). (Special thanks to my other little sister Fiff, for helping out with the light and replacing fallen flowers.) Tattoo from dmmdresources.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 5: Flames

It feels like those flames are devouring me.

I'm not dead

And to proof that I have a WIP of my actual AkuSaiMonth (that is long gone, but who cares? xDD) day 22 fill for you!

(it's actually almost done, just needs a bit more ... finetuning. I love coloring with crayons (or colored pencils? I'm still not sure how to call them ö_ö), but it always takes me quiet some time.)

Nah, seriously, sorry for being so inactive, I'm quiet surprised that I still have that many followers (even more that I had before actually x'D)

I'm a bit busy lately, summer's over so now I've got time for conventions, which means, I've got to finish my cosplays x'D (I still need to do the Deadly Nadder costume I promised to my sister and the fitting Astrid Hofferson for me until mid october @_@")

My main problem though is that my Photoshop broke down. I got a bluescreen and now it's acting like I never activated it in the first place and when I'm trying to open it, it's just telling me that it's going to install the test version, Yeah great, thank you. (I am now officially desperate enough to use PS Elements on the PC in the hotel I'm working to edit my pictures; i just can't upload any unedited pictures =_=" My pride won't allow it)

Once I solved that problem there will be more pictures again, promise.

Di[e]ce Winter Weeks | Snow

Some idiots lying around in how-do-i-draw-snow-again!

Bonus: