Let Me Face My Fears.

AKUSAIMONTH | 2018 Day 3: You’re too hot when you’re mad.

(I’m spending summer at @kittendough’s place, something like this was bound to happen.)

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Two (older) sketches I felt like sharing. 

The left one (Coronation) is from June ‘16 and is part of an AU I work on from time to time. The right one (Betrayal) is pretty much a redraw, but in a different context. I drew that one in March this year.

Though they look very similar, they have a slightly different subject: Coronation is about outward-directed anger, about something that has happened / is still happening and could not be prevented. Betrayal on the other hand is about self-hatred. About an inward-directed anger that comes from allowing a person to get close enough to hurt one.

I like to see them both lined up next to each other, because it emphasizes the differences. Also, I think they complete each other.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 20: Teamwork

[Wir sind unzertrennlich // We are inseparable wir sind unvergänglich // we are everlasting Wir sind unzertrennlich // we are inseparably in unserer Welt verloren // lost in our world] [Unzertrennlich – Revolverheld] "Lea, are you even listening?“ "Uhm – sometimes?“ Actually I was just lost in my thoughts somehow. Happens from time to time. "Sometimes? You are aware that school starts in three days?“ "Yeah, I know, I was just thinking …“ "Thinking.“ You sounded as though you doubted I could do that even if I tried. "I thought 'I hope we can always be together like that'“, I said straight enough. And of course you’re caught of guard. And of course I can see your face brighten up, almost shine for one moment, before you turn back to your usual sarcastic pokerface. "Stuck up in homework? No, thank you.“ Still, I can see the little smile you can’t hold back and I know that you are wishing for it just as much as I do. Then again, I already knew that before, didn’t I?

I love it when Axel explains summer vacations in 358/2 Days. I can't help but imagine him and Isa doing exactly that, postponing homework to the very last moment and just somehow managing to get it done in time together. I don't know, this thought makes me just so happy xD

Anyone who thinks I'm exaggerating – think again.

This is the only voltron fanart you’ll ever see from me. 

And I only have one thing to add to it: I am so proud of Keith. He made the right decision, even though it was the hard one. The one he was actually told not to take, the one that was the best for himself.

You did well, dear.

AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 16: SET C - “Disappearance”

I was watching as your light went out, and I felt nothing.

When he came for me, I fought with everything I had. He had beaten me before, but surely this time, surely with all the not-hatred I felt for him, I could win.

I couldn't.

As I felt myself vanishing, the pain and the sadness finally caught up on me. It was just for one moment, but I felt an overwhelming hurt. In that moment I wanted nothing more than to go back in time, back to when things were okay. I wanted nothing more than to be whole again. 

But there was nothing to be done. You were gone, and so was I.

In the end, it was all for nothing.

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Messy lighting experiment from a few days ago featuring my two favourite not-quite-human boys. I’m very much in love with Shin Megami Tensei IV: Apocalypse.

AKUSAIMONTH: DAYTIME MOON Day 5: Mm, you’re warm.

“You too ...“

18 Days left.

This is one of the things I'm looking forward the most? OH YES. Roll, VenVen, roll.

That's the place where I live. Looks cute from up there, doesn't it? When I look out of my room's window, I can see up to the exact place I stood when I was taking this photo.

It's nice to see things from a different angle from time to time.