Memories - An Akusai One Shot

So, anyone continuing AkuSaiMonth with me?

“I’m the one who killed my mentor.”

Happy UR-1 incident day (October 7, 2020)!! He knows what awaits him.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 21: Music & Lyrics

Die Welt steht still // The world stands still zwischen uns // between us Mach die Augen wieder auf // Open the eyes again Atme langsam wieder aus // Breath out again Die Welt steht still // The world stands still

[Die Welt steht still - Revolverheld]

"Die Welt steht still" is about two people who slowly drifted away from each other. They have changed over time and each of them has made a lot of mistakes which are now mounting up in between them and creating some sort of an invisible wall. He sings that he doesn't know whether it's too late to forgive all of that, to see each other anew, but he is willing to try it. It's all up to the other.

What really impressed my about this song is the video. It adds a complete new layer of meaning to it. You can see a woman who is pulled out of a river and people running her way trying to save / reanimate her. It was actually this life saving aspect that really caught my attention.

With the woman coming back around during the end of the video it is very clear how the story in the song is supposed to end, I rather wanted to show the uncertain state before the decision instead. I'm not sure myself though, whether this will be a "life saving" or a "going down together" story or something else completely.

Calm Nights And Mornings (A.k.a the picture that low-key looks like Zavier wants to strangle Danny)

[Alternate Ending AU]

quick baby akusai kisses before bed for herzblutrose 

(referring to this post)

So, I decided to do it like this from now on. Writing all the background info on my pictures in an extra post, rather than stuffing it into the caption. I just don’t feel very well when people reblog pictures with my sometimes very personal thoughts in the captions. It’s strange to see that on other people’s blogs. Also, this way I can write to my heart’s content. All of the unnecessary stuff noone wants to know anyway! <3 Yay.

(I’ll tag this as “dias art blabber”, by the way.)

So, let’s do this. Background infos, thoughts and close ups below the cut.

Starting Point // Summary? There were three reasons for this picture: a) another onset of winter in the midst of May gave me the right inspiration to finally get that spring flower thing out of my head; b) the nice tags by some people added drastically to that + someone wrote that they “miss miss miss” my art and apparently they only ever see my akusais, so here you go ;) ; and c) it’s my 78th post. It called for some AkuSai. -like stuff.

Finding the motif // flowers The basic idea behind this picture was Roxas with this flower. We call them Sky’s/Heaven’s Keys. (sky and heaven are the same word in German ... I guess it means heaven, but I always understood it as sky. When I was a child I’d always imagine flying and unlocking the sky with one of those flowers …) They are my absolute favourite spring flowers and I found them fitting for Roxas. Not just because of the name, but also on an emotional base.

I figured quiet fast that I should get Xion and Axel onto the pic as well. Xion would of course get Forget-Me-Nots. Which is not very creative, I guess. xD Yet so undeniably fitting. For Axel it was Cuckoo’s Flowers. One of the few pink things I liked as a child. Probably because it wasn’t some “girlish baby colour”, but a really hot pink that really sticked out. Aaaalso, cuckoos are brood parasites, not so sure how you think about that, but in my opinion that connotation suits Axel.

// the rest Still I didn’t know how to get that onto a picture. Until it snowed some day in the middle of May. This was exactly the input I needed. I just thought, that if the Sea Salt Trio was spring flowers, then Saix would be the snow. The last picture followed to bring the picture to an end. It seemed so unfinished, almost like a lie, with the three of them happy.

Upload // Or: Tumblr hates me I did really have a hard time uploading this thing. I literally tried everything. Even with the supposingly working size of 540 x 810 px the pictures were still blurry ... I even tried to reduce the height by cutting the pictures into parts. Still blurry. At some point I just decided that I didn’t care anymore. They are clear on my blog or when they are clicked. That’s enough.

Close Ups // I promised them and here they are! That’s about the size I worked on when I was colouring, the original sketches are waaay smaller, they are drawn on DIN A4 paper (see comparison in the end). 

I like to set these two into some sort of ... contrasting parallels? Like, creating opposites, yet showing the similarities at the same time. Wow, does this even make any sense? xD I used more colour on the bottom of the last picture, because I really wanted the red to be strong there. That image is supposed to have a sad at first and then almost hateful atmosphere. I wanted it to have an unsettling effect  when scrolling down (and letting it sink in, of course).

Axel looks like a flower himself. x’D Especially in those colours …

When my youngest sister saw the picture with the three of them she asked me, if they were marrying. x’D

Size comparison with the actual drawing; the flowers in their hands are like super mini tiny.

So, in case you did read this, thanks a lot! Would you mind letting me know what you think about it, please? Like, does it make sense to do this? What are the interesting parts? What is not? Anything else that you would like to know/see? Did you like the close ups?

Anyway, thank you very very much for showing interest! :D That’s basically the reason for me to finish pictures and put them up on here. You, that is.

"Come on, Isa, don't make a face like that. ... We're going to be alright, I promise."

Small thank you picture for all of you wonderful people who liked my last post @//u//@ I really didn't expect to get notes on that one. Don't know, somehow every single one of them feels like "Hey, it's good to have you back!" and no matter if that's what you meant or not, it still feels great and I love you all for that feeling x'D

Seriously, THANK YOU.

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 4: SET C - “Affection”

“So, you're into astrology, right!” “It's astronomy. Astrology is -” “Yeah, yeah, whatever. I’ve got something to show you!” “…Wait, this leads to the roof, doesn’t it?” “Yup.” “Stop that, are you insane?” “No, you’re just boring. Come on, I’ve been up there like ten million times before. It’s safe, trust me.” "Yeah, because that sounds like a good idea." "Oi, I can hear you, you know." "Wouldn't make much sense saying it otherwise." "Heh, true enough."

I remember the moon's reflection in his eyes, that night. I remember the way he smiled, proud of his surprise for me. And I remember the warmth creeping up inside of me for the first time in my life.

It was the beginning of my personal demise.

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Kaz “I don’t need anyone and like hell I’m in love” Brekker.

YESSSSS!! THIS!!!

Things that make me feel like posting on Tumblr is actually still worth the effort:

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