Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 14: Lies

So, Axel with a ponytail B) And a braid. And a lot of hairclips. Or: This monster of a wig is killing me, send help.

I’ve been breathing nothing else but hairspray for days. It’s not as bad as dying a wig in a room with too little ventilation though, that one can really make your head go funny. x’D

Wow, this wig really makes me go through a lot, and I fear that it might be worth it in the end. Which is terrible because that increases the risk of me doing it again. I’m unteachable when it comes to things like this, ahaha.

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 7: SET C - “Explosion”

I saw him coming.
 Never before had I seen anything like what he held in his hands, but I didn’t need to to know it was dangerous, that he was dangerous. 
I shouted out to you, reached for you in order to push you out of his way, but you grabbed me instead and held on to me. I don’t even know if that’s what you were planning to do, but you acted as a shield to me, the last thing I would have ever wished for.

I won’t ever be able to forget the pain I saw in your eyes as you disappeared without another word.

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AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 13: SET C - “Blissful Ignorance”

I searched for the warmth I once found in you, but it was so hard to remember. Everytime you rejected me, it left me a little more indifferent and soon, there was nothing else left.

It didn't hurt. How should it, when I couldn't feel at all? Unlike you, I accepted it from the start. I didn't try to fight a fact I wouldn't be able to change.

I accepted it. Just as I soon learned to accept that you would no longer be a part of my existence.

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“I’m the one who killed my mentor.”

Happy UR-1 incident day (October 7, 2020)!! He knows what awaits him.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 16: Jealousy

I don't even have the time to waste it like that. So go on playing with your little puppies if you so wish.

So, I had been wondering about a ship name for these two. Maybe NightWeight, after their surnames. Or Jorsa, like a mixup of their first names.

Turns out, we’re apparently going with their callsigns. So, SpinFace is it. 

Honestly, this is simultaneously the best and the worst name ever and I love it.

I know people claim there’s no romance in Brandon Sanderson’s Skyward, but that’s not true. It’s just the most amazing and realistically written rivals to friends to lovers slow burn I’ve ever seen. 

Honestly, I just love Jerkface and Spin with my entire being. 

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BLESS YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS RN!!

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Thanks so much!! Tryna draw him now and I was struggling to get him right :')

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Bless your soul for doing this ♡ my hero

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THANK YOU

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Thank you for this. My brain kept getting confused...

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I love this and him.

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8O

You, as well as everyone who left kind words in the tags (I always read the tags), are all so sweet! Thank you! I’m glad, I could help you out! 

Also:

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I really liked Isa’s getup It’s a great look

Yes, I think so too. <3

"Behold. These lifeless keys used to be full of power." 16 Days.

I love Birth by Sleep just so incredibly much <3 And this was probably the most awesome finale I have ever seen in any game. I played the end so often that I soon knew all the lines by heart – and I had a great time annoying everyone who had just a remote idea of what Kingdom Hearts is with my immitation of Master Xehanort. Ah yes, good old times. xDDD

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 12: SET C - “Gradient”

Your behavior towards me changed. You changed.

It was important to keep a close eye on the wielder of the keyblade. Up to this very day, I cannot claim to know the full truth behind Xemnas’ – behind Xehanort’s plan. The essential part this boy played in it was obvious nonetheless. It was only logical to let you watch him.

As always though, you didn’t quite act as I was expecting. You never did, and still I could have never forseen the outcome this would cause. By the time I realized, it was already too late.

I was already losing you to him.

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Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 13: Broken

All I want is to hold you. Nothing more – and nothing less. I know that when I do, I can pretend it to be us. Not just empty shells. I can pretend things to be fine, even if it is just for a moment. I can almost pretend to feel, because – I do somehow. I do remember how warm it felt to touch you, to be with you. That’s enough for me. But all you ever do, is telling me that I can’t. Telling me that it’s not true. That you can’t feel me, even when I am near to you, that it feels like a lie at best. That you don’t want me to touch you, because it makes you realize how false all of this is. How false we are. We don’t have hearts. We can’t feel. Then why does it hurt that much?

This was actually the first fill I drew for Akusaimonth. Yep, that’s the day I entered. I decided afterwards that I will do them in the right order and let that sketch be. Which was a good thing too, because it actually looked terrible. xDDD Phew, good to see that I got better at drawing those two in the last two weeks.