Everyday I Look At Other People's Art And I Cry A Little Because I Want The Result But I Don't Know How

"There's no upsetting me - there's little life left in the seabed."

Yes, I will be posting about Lovejoy in 2025.

Let’s talk about Katniss’s mother, shall we?

She’s grown up living in fear of being reaped for so long, gets married, has kids, then loses the one thing that brought her joy: her husband. How long had she gone without losing anyone to the Games? But it doesn’t matter, because life is cruel and her loved one was still taken from her.

Katniss is so much like her father that even looking at her brings Katniss’s mother to a different time, a different place. Prim is so much like herself—it’s easier to be with her—but Katniss? She sings and works just like her late husband and Katniss’s mother can’t stand that. She can’t stand the songs, she can’t stand the reality of her world. So she dissociates.

She doesn’t try to repair their bond, doesn’t try to reach out. She barely asks where Katniss goes in Mockingjay and she only does that because it reminds her of her husband—leaving and then never coming back. 12 took so much from her, and she can’t go back.

Then Prim dies and the last of Katniss’s mother does too.

Prim is her hope, her new life. If Prim can keep going, then so can she. But with Prim gone, she has nothing but the constant reminder of her husband, Katniss. And she can’t stand to look at her anymore.

She can’t go back to 12. She can’t look at Katniss. So she doesn’t. She gives into the monotony of life and fades from the story.

This is why Haymitch is so important to Katniss and her story. If Katniss is her dad, then she needed someone like him to come alongside her and show her things. He has the same mindset as her father: be present and aware of what reality is. Katniss’s mother couldn’t do that.

And yet, Katniss is her mother. She dissociates just the same, but she had one difference—she had Peeta.

Worldbuilding has my brain ping-ponging around with ideas. I've gone from space pirates, to monarchies, to fleet creation. 14-year-old me would be so proud.

Derivakat's music has only gone up in quality since the dsmp days and I wish people recognized her more than just "white streak in my hair now" (as fantastic as that song is). Here are some of my favorite tracks rn:

Castaway - space vibes, introspective but intense, perfect for a main character

Yru - intense orchestral, beautiful lyrics, reaching for something more, longing for someone, crank-it and scream-it music

Fall - doomed lovers, that intense longing, like a clock as fate ticks down

Boom - giving Jinx (Arcane), great for fast-paced scenes, definitely would make a sick fight scene, back beat slaps

Reign - villain arc, gaslight gatekeep girlboss time

Her recent stuff has screamed ꜱᴘᴀᴄᴇ and I will get people to see it.

i love a drunk father-figure who cares deeply for his adopted kid

Tolkien is seen as this great inventory of worldbuilding, and my man was literally just taking mythology from other places and slapping new names on it.

I'm reading a Tolkien encyclopedia (yes, I am that type of nerd), and half of his mythology is just revised Norse myth and I am here for it.

In short, don't be afraid to take the stories that have been told for centuries and revise it into something new and fresh. That is what literature is all about.

love that I can crank out 2k words for a random word prompt but can’t write 200 words for my actual book

got randomly tagged but sure why not. here are some of my favorite songs :)

Tidal Wave by Owl City (probably one of my all time favorites)

Idontwannaknowyou! by MICO (Telemachus' VA! His album Internet Hometown Hero is a top album rn)

Leave This World Behind by Parellite (something about this song gives me chills every time)

See The Glory by Steven Curtis Chapman (a classic from my childhood that made me fall in love with music)

Hello My Old Heart by The Oh Hellos (beautiful words, catchy tune)

This was way harder than it needed to be lol. This is a good variety of some of my favorites tho

@sunburntcroissant :)

List five of your favorite or top songs, then send this ask to the last ten people in your notifications! :D

Finally answering my asks from my ask box bcuz I lowkey forget to check it- (this is from nov of last year man)

1. Wouldn’t you like- epic the musical

2. I can’t handle change- roar

3.daddy issues- the neighborhood

4.heather- Conan gray

5. Dangerous- epic the musical (honestly just add the entire musical at this point)

6.romantic homocide- dv4d (this song always has a special place in my heart bro)

7. Family line- Conan gray

8. Pump it- black eyes peas (guys I made an entire summer playlist and I know the entire just dance to this song)

9. Dance with me- sir, please (it’s such a good song I miss when summer sounded like this song bcuz of the Leo playlists I’d listen too)

10. Army dreamers- Kate bush (idk why but this has always js been a special song to me ever since i discovered it. I can listen to this song on repeat and never get tired. It gives me like nostalgia of a life I never had for some reason. It’s odd)

@remnantsofthefallen @justmaiidraws @spookie-puppy @mistysanrio @cozmic-wyatt @rottmnt-fan14 @foxyfox4 @afteas2003 @lemedstudent2021 @fluffyfrog9000

character design is hard because I want it to be complex but simple - why so hard

Thursday, June 12th 2025 2:09 a.m.