Almost two months later, but I got my entrance confirmation!!!
Starting August, I'll be an official college studentđ«đ
I'm so happy those past few days, because everything has been working my way. And yesterday I just received the results from a college entrance exam and I placed so well among all the people. I'm pretty sure I'll be receiving my entrance confirmation soon.
And it's all because I have been believing myself like I have never done before, and it's so freeing and exhilarating to know that I can have absolutely anything I want from now on.
So do a favor to yourself and believe! I know I'm doing it and it's working!
when he says he hates you but
gets upset when you keep secrets from him and cries and confides and vents to you alone in the moonlight and doesn't once stop you from calling him by his childhood nickname and never outright insults your interests and sometimes even indulges them and says things like keep your eyes on me and don't you dare look away and tells you not to come after him when he's in danger because he knows you and actively helps you succeed so he can fight you to the top and runs to his literal imminent death with no hesitation to save you and chases you relentlessly when you try to fix everything alone and can't say I love you so he says I'm sorry for everything instead and gently catches you in the rain and says I know because he truly does
when he says he hates you but loves you in Every. Other. Possible. Way.
You just know that Kitty is going to become Mr. Moons matchmaker over the summer. She directs him to finding someone his age for a change. Min Ho doesn't understand their friendship but isn't surprised by it AT ALL.
She's also somehow part of the Moon family group chat, that SHE STARTED. He doesn't know how she got everyone's number, and he's too afraid to ask.
She's also put herself in charge of the baby shower for Joon Ho and his fiancé. She's also friends with all of the background dancers on tour has found SEVERAL of them matches.
Also, there are LOTS of places to make out backstage, and they definitely have utilized ALL of those spaces.
There's a cocky idol on the group that keeps flirting with Kitty and Min Ho just shows up and glares at them. Kitty is completely oblivious to this happening, but Joon Ho sees and teases his brother relentlessly.
They visit her great aunt periodically and her cousin, who have already decided Min Ho is their favorite.
Min Ho has gotten them matching skin care products, because, "You have to stop STEALING MINE, COVEY. I HAVE A ROUTINE."
They still spend their time bickering like an old married couple.
Can someone tell me, being completely honest, if shifting is just a big joke that people started to do out of boredom because of quarantine?
'Cause I've been trying for almost a year, and yet it has never happened to me. There's only three times that I may have come close to it, and that's all.
What am I doing wrong???
Let talk about all the lines in the Grishaverse that are the most poetic, and that I would get tattooed to my forehead in a heartbeat
âWhat is infinite? the universe and the greed of men.â
âWhen people say impossible, they usually mean improbable.â
âThe heart is an arrow. It demands aim to land true.â
âI am not ruined. I am ruination.â
âFear is a Phoenix. You can watch it burn a thousand times and still it will return.â (One of my favorite)
âIâm the Sun Summoner, It gets dark when I say it does.â
âNo mourners, No Funerals.â
âI would come for you. And if I couldnât walk Iâd crawl to you, and no matter how broken we were, weâd fight our way out together-Knifes drawn, pistols blazing. Because thatâs what we do. We never stop fighting.â
I could definitely make a Pt.2
The rest of the queers aren't allowed to exclude asexuals anymore; we've got the JK Rowling Seal of Disapproval! It's official, we belong!
yuri and kitty make sense. it did not come out of nowhere. the rom com meet cute? all of the tension while yuri was âdatingâ dae and how easily that tension transfers to romantic tension after kittyâs dream? that doesnât come out of nowhere. kitty and yuri in the beginning of the show are two people who are at odds but donât really want to be at odds. once the dae situation is mostly resolved, they become fast friends, which itâs foreshadowed they can be in episode 1. moreover, kitty has been with dae since she was 12. she clearly has been focused on him and not herself, and her interest in yuri is allowed to flourish because she is not with dae when it begins. she does not think she will be with dae. and she is in fact actively looking for someone to kiss. moreover, even if it was out of nowhere (which it isnât) kitty is 17 (16?). at that age, crushes appear out of nowhere all. the. time. and while it might not have been the best idea to tell yuri about her feelings, kitty thought she would never see her again. sometimes the right thing for you, the thing that will let you keep going, is going to hurt someone else. doesnât make it okay, just is. and on top of that, she didnât fully confess anyway. and kittyâs not known for making good decisions, since literally the first tatbilb movie. itâs up to yuri now to decide what to do with this information. she clearly has wanted juliana to come back, and it is unlikely she will drop juliana because of kittyâs aborted confession. additionally, the few times weâve seen juliana have been 1) the flashback, 2) the kiss in the janitorâs closet (neither of which reveal much about her), 3) the phone call in the tent, 4) the phone call in kitty/yuri/qâs room, and 5) the scene at the airport. in 2 and 3, juliana seems to have resigned herself to a life without yuri, and seems honestly shocked that yuri cared enough to go to such lengths to find her. what does that say about what juliana thinks of the relationship that yuri is so invested in? in 4 and 5, 4 explicitly, juliana is worried about yuriâs friendship with kitty, and jealous of it, and pushes the fact that she doesnât quite trust yuriâs telling her the truth about the platonic nature of their friendship. to be clear, i have absolutely nothing against juliana. i am interested and curious to see her as a full character in season 2, and i do, in fact, desperately hope that they do not villainize a black queer female character. on the other hand, black queer women can be toxic partners. limiting othered people to only heroic, savior-like, positive roles, is also not great. and exhibiting jealous and mistrusting behavior already when we have so few, brief scenes of her is to me an orange flag. iâm not worried about it yet, but i have noticed it. and often, people who imply that they donât trust their partner not to cheat, have already cheated themselves. once again, i hope this is untrue, i hope iâm wrong. finally, kitty was not in the right to almost confess to yuri, but it is not the cardinal sin some people are pretending it is. yuri and juliana may continue, they may not. whatever happens, it wonât be kittyâs fault. it is not inherently homophobic if you donât ship kittyuri, or if you ship minty. it is homophobic to perpetuate this idea that the ship came out of nowhere simply because you donât ship it and have refused to see what the show is explicitly showing.
in this same vein, min ho and kitty make sense. it did not come out of nowhere. and while min ho might not have had the best timing with telling kitty his feelings, he did in fact wait until he had confirmation that she was no longer with dae. he might have said something further had the PA not interrupted, but he did not appear to expect anything from her in return after he told her (just as kitty did not appear to expect anything in return from yuri when she almost confessed). kitty is shocked, but very clearly not upset about the information. to us, it is clear that min ho has liked kitty for a while, probably longer than he knew or let on. sometimes so called âhatredâ for someone is genuinely that, but as demonstrated in xo kitty, it is often the exact opposite. (i am of course talking about disliking someone interpersonally for muddled reasons, not disliking someone for genuine reasons, i.e. theyâre a harmful person.) dislike for someone is often based on someone protecting themselves for whatever reason. based on all that we know about min ho, he has a lot of family related issues, and a lot of reason to put up walls in order to protect himself. he is initially âanti-kittyâ because he thinks dae should explore his options with someone he is in the same country with and then because he thinks yuri is a better option. a lot of this quite clearly stems from the way he was raised, the fact that his father is on wife #3, and the classism that very much exists in korea (as it does in many places) and honestly probably because kitty is half-white (i am not saying there is racism against white people, there isnât. iâm saying that there is often unfortunate biases against mixed kids from both/all of their communities). in the chuseok episode, he says âmy parents thought they were true love, and then had the messiest divorce everâ (or something to that effect). that line is so telling: min ho doesnât believe in true love, or maybe even love at all. he looks at it as transactional, what can i get from them and what can they get from me? itâs evident in his failed (i think?) tryst with the k pop star whoâs name is escaping me, and in his situationship with madison. but spending so much time around kitty specifically changes his mind about these things. slowly, at first, and then much more rapidly. heâs still cocky, arrogant min ho, but he chills out a lot over those first few episodes. i think he appreciates that kitty actually responds to his teasing and one ups him oftentimes. and when he calls her his saesang, itâs so funny bc he is so clearly the one obsessed with her at all times throughout season 1. also, the dream happens after the chuseok episode, where they noticeably get closer. there is buildup! he thinks sheâs beautiful when she enters his party, and is actively trying to resist his crush on her (because he thinks he shouldnât have a crush on his friendâs girlfriend) when he reacts to it being her. he respects that he thinks she and dae are still into each other and moves his attention to madison. he knows her order in the detention episode. he is upset for her when he finds out yuri and dae lied. he saves her from the fireworks. he does not fight back against dae after dae attacks him because he thinks dae has the right to. he looks visibly shattered when kitty says min ho isnât the one she was talking about. also, min ho would not have made the effort to sweet talk some flight attendant to find kittyâs seat and sit in coach because of nothing.Â
with both kittyuri, and with minty, they are one sided crushes (at least at the moment) with potential to be reciprocated, and i think people are misinterpreting them because of that. neither of them came out of nowhere, neither of them are toxic, and neither of the two ships involving teenagers include characters who are morally bad.
in conclusion, let people ship things. ship things yourself! and most of all, do not take things that seriously. shipping should never be a war. even if you personally donât like a ship, it is shitty to go and actively hate the ship, especially if the ship is not doing you any harm, especially if you go into the positive spaces for that ship to spread your hate. if you donât ship something, do not interact with content for that ship. it is not that hard. it is 2023, not 2013. ship whatever the hell you want.
Is it even that strange that Regulus started doing everything that their mother wanted him to?
Regulus wasnât the one to take the punishment if he fucked up, his brother was. Sirius would make sure that he was the one to take all of Regulusâ beatings. Knowing that his brother was on the line if he didnât do as they say, he would just listen to their parents.
Nothing was worse than seeing Sirius in pain knowing it was his fault.
So he listened. He kept his head down. He did as he was told. All for Sirius to start detesting him. All for Sirius to leave him. Sirius started hating him because Regulus would listen to them, because he didnât act up. What a fucking juxtaposition right?
So when Sirius left, and Regulus could theoretically do as he pleased without getting his brother in trouble, he couldâve just started acting out. But he didnât. Maybe he had forgotten how to. How to have his own mind and opinions. All forgotten.
So he continued to keep his head down and doing as he was told. And Sirius continued hating him.
I'm feeling very good about myself lately, like everything is working my way...
Maybe because it is ;)
I think I have finally came to an agreement between loa/loas and my skeptical mind, after so many months lol
Dark Ravenclaw!Severus Snape. He is still the Potions professor and gives Ravenclaw the relevance it deserves.
Slytherin! headmaster Albus Dumbledore. His desire for power is still there and actually fits with his personality.
Ravenclaw! Hermione Granger. You know she belongs there.
Slytherin! Percy. That little sh*t got sorted into Gryffindor because the Hat got tired of analyzing the traits of the Weasley siblings. The rest of them are all Gryffindor, though.
Slytherin! Harry Potter being the good guy and saving the Wizarding world from Lord Voldermort. *The hat should have said Slytherin, for God's sake*
Ron being friend with a Slytherin and a Ravenclaw. *I love that idea*
Draco and Harry wearing green cloaks and sharing a common room.
âWhat the hell do you spend your time doing on that phone?â