Ihre Regeln...

Most guys would run, file a divorce, tell her to fuck off for falling in love with another man. Not me though. I'm a cuckold. I am consumed by my own inadequacy, but strangely, it thrills me. Every moment she shares with him, every laugh, every touch it fills me with a twisted sense of pleasure. I knew she was falling for him, a man stronger than me in every way, more capable of giving her sexually what I can’t. It turns out emotionally too.

Yet, even as she gives herself to him, even as she might eventually leave me for him, I can’t help but admire her. I love her so deeply that it hurts, but it’s the kind of hurt I crave. She’s my everything, my queen, even as she chooses him over me. I find a strange comfort in encouraging her to do it, in watching her fall more deeply in love with him. Single nights with him turning into weekends, vacations. The pain it brings me doesn’t matter, because it only makes me want her more. It only arouses me more than I have ever felt. She’s the sadist in this dynamic, pushing me beyond my limits, and I, the willing masochist. I’m addicted to the torment and the beauty of her freedom. It’s a cruel dance, and I can’t stop myself from wanting her to keep moving with him, even if it tears me apart. She tells me she still loves me, yet I can't understand how she can love me and him.

Should I start selling my dirty teen undies?

Remember her on her birthday

After loosing her to him, the thought of her with her boyfriend still excites you. Her birthday serves as a reminder that he will taking her out, then home to make love to her all night. You wonder if she thinks about you sitting at home getting off to her still and loving that her being with him still drives you crazy for her.

She still loves you, and she doesn’t want to hurt you. But it would be only natural for her to think about a life with him now, wouldn’t it? After all, they’re the couple now, and you are the outsider.

So you try to ignore the worst of that cuckold angst. You hold it in. You don’t want her to see how afraid you are. Because this is the happiness you wanted for her. She always deserved better than you could offer, and when you both agreed that she should take a lover, the risks were clear.

So, cuck, tell her once again how much you love her, and that her happiness is all that matters to you. Make her understand that she can be with him fully, and still keep you. Because you just want her to be happy and you’re ready to accept your new role your marriage.

Well… Happy 1st anniversary… Wait? What?