U Really Do Have To Forgive Yourself

I’m sitting in my hairstylist’s chair for 6 hours today, so I’m shopping and designing my new place on my iPad. I’m moving to university and rushing this autumn, so I’m in the process of choosing what I’ll wear for each day. I don’t have a budget, and I like to shop, but the issue is I’m always out or otherwise busy with something more pressing than shopping, so it’s nice to sit with foils in my hair and focus on pulling everything together. This is much better than the Peking Duck and Diet Coke rest we do when I have a long appointment.

i love you shy women. i love you melancholy women. i love you aging women. i love you perverse women. i love you romantic women. i love you strange women.

no phone time all morning. dancing to loud music while getting ready for the day. hours of studying. to-do lists. hour-by-hour schedule. staying out the loop. being extremely selective w who i give my time and attention to. weekly hair masks. vitamins. cute fits even if i’m all by myself. smelling divine. taking pictures for my own enjoyment. fruit smoothies. layering lip glosses. eating healthy, nourishing foods. consistently hitting the gym. living at the library. glistening skin. reading or watching a film before bed. indulging hobbies. keeping to myself. long walks in the cold. early wakeup time. moisturizers and glowy body oils and creamy butters. bubble baths. drinking lots of water. religiously applying sunscreen. consuming heart-wrenching poetry. journaling. manicure. random acts of kindness.

Focus on what you want. Disregard that which ought to remain in the past. Focus on your desires. Disregard the rest. Focus. Focus. Focus. Especially on what you want to grow. Multiply your most delicious desires. Fucking alchemize your present reality into your wildest fantasy.

Things that changed your face?

Lip filler, a tan, no more bottom mascara, thinner and slightly darker eyebrows, gua sha and nu face daily, good skincare, limiting alcohol and focusing on what I put into my body, cutting sugary drinks and adding kefir/kombucha to my hydration schedule, washing my sheets and makeup tools weekly, red light therapy, and learning how to apply makeup properly did it for me.

please don’t spend your life convincing yourself that love or joy is reserved for the idealized version of you that only exists in the future

You need a man that’s insanely obsessed with you (:

I prefer someone devoted and emotionally regulated…obsession fades, but consistency doesn’t.

Milky pink nails are so important for my mental health

May the next version of your life feel like a deep breath.