Pleasureandprinciple - Sugar Rimmed

Rhinoplasty ~ $3,500. 

I had my nose done back in 2021 for $3,500, and yes, the stimulus checks I got subsidized it. I was 18, wanted to fix my nose so badly, and had plenty of spare time on my hands, so I did it. I don’t regret it in the slightest, but I view myself differently after having it, and while my face changed for the better, it still changed to a point where I felt as if I was unrecognizable for a few years. I had no pain, recovery was swift, my bridge and nostrils are perfection, and I tape to this day. It was worth the money, and again, I don’t regret it, but I do think that anyone who has facial plastic surgery needs to be mentally prepared for the stress you’ll experience immediately postop and during your year of recovery.

Breast Augmentation ~ $6,500. 

I had breast implants, an internal bra, a little bit of lipo on my bra line, and a fat transfer to the upper poles of my breasts, and it was worth every penny. I was flat as a board before, but I didn’t want to do anything that would seem overpowering on my frame, so I discussed it all with my surgeon, and we found a solution together. They sit like they’re fake but feel like they’re real, they look amazing in bikini tops, and the lipo and internal bra were worth every cent of the extra cost. I went with silicone over saline. I had the classic under-bust incision (and it’s so faded now that it just looks like a thin white line), and apart from some heavy bruising in the area, recovery was easy.

Full Body Electrolysis ~ $2,000. 

I was grandfathered in with the pricing here, but I’d still really recommend electrolysis if you want a permanent form of hair removal. I got started on electrolysis when I was 16. It took around nine months of regular sessions and consistent effort to get to where I wanted to be, and five years have passed with very minimal hair growth. I had thick, dark hair, and I hated it so much that I did what everyone I knew at the time was doing and decided to have my body hair removed. Electrolysis hurts like a mother; it leaves your skin stinging, but in my opinion, it’s the only way to make sure the hair stays gone long term. My underarms hurt the least, my bikini area was bad at the start, and the backs of my knees were horrendous, but numbing gel really helps.

I saw what I wanted in my mind’s eye and decided I could have it. I decided that nothing was too grand, nothing was impossible or out of my reach, and nothing would hold me back from getting it. I thought to myself, “I would like to be beautiful", and so with a lot of work and planning, beautiful was what I became.

no phone time all morning. dancing to loud music while getting ready for the day. hours of studying. to-do lists. hour-by-hour schedule. staying out the loop. being extremely selective w who i give my time and attention to. weekly hair masks. vitamins. cute fits even if i’m all by myself. smelling divine. taking pictures for my own enjoyment. fruit smoothies. layering lip glosses. eating healthy, nourishing foods. consistently hitting the gym. living at the library. glistening skin. reading or watching a film before bed. indulging hobbies. keeping to myself. long walks in the cold. early wakeup time. moisturizers and glowy body oils and creamy butters. bubble baths. drinking lots of water. religiously applying sunscreen. consuming heart-wrenching poetry. journaling. manicure. random acts of kindness.

a deep connection can’t be formed without emotional safety. without safety, there’s no trust. without trust, there’s no vulnerability. without vulnerability, there’s no intimacy + without intimacy, there’s no true connection.

Chic and cringe are twin sisters and sometimes they switch places!!!

askin God to remove laziness, procrastination, and the fear of being judged out my body by tonight and forever, thanks!

i love not being accessible to a lot of people.

Iconic image of Princess Diana on a yacht in Portofino, Italy, in August 1997.

Aligning, persisting, learning, observing and executing.