Just A Random Monologue About That One Fucker (not A Poem):

Just a random monologue about that one fucker (not a poem):

I hate you for treating me the way you did, I gave you my body, my time, trust my affection and my touch.

You took it all and crushed it.

You take so much but do you ever give?

You always take everything but never give anything.

I hate you for crushing what we could have had and what I thought we had.

« I love the way you take care of me » you said the last time we saw which was 2 weeks ago;

« I saw that you unblocked me, I’m sorry for what I said[…] I truly appreciate you and it would annoy me a lot if we stopped talking », « do you want to see me again? » you said 2 month ago.

For 2 years you told me that I was beautiful, that you missed me when you were away, that you couldn’t wait to see me again etc… and I believed you.

You also kept telling me that you had too much to think about to commit, made me believe that you had anxiety and I believed you.

But how naive was I, right?

It was all lies.

If not why would you commit to a girl you met 8 month ago and lives on another continent?

Why can you treat her better?

Why did you start spitting on my face and slap me in the face once you were back?

Why didn’t you at least talked to me about it when you came back 5 month ago?

Why could you sleep with her but would send me back home on my own at 3 am after using me and my body?

Are you even capable of loving?

For you, I was just an orientalist fantasy, to say it with pretty words.

I stared in your eyes with only tenderness; you stared in mine only with lust.

You’re blinded by your lust.

Nothing of it was real; it was all lies.

You always take but you never give,

So eager to take that you couldn’t even see my softness, sensitivity or my history.

Or maybe you did and just took advantage of it because it’s your nature,

You’re a Scorpio and I’m a Pisces,

You were the predator and I was the prey.

You didn’t deserve any of it nor do you deserve these words, anyways you might not even be able to comprehend it,

But it is in my nature.