oh i love you fucked up mentor-mentee dynamics i love you dynamics that aren't quite friendship or family or romantic but some other thing that's like "you taught me how to be everything i know and i am grateful to you and i would die for you but also i resent you so much i love you i hate you how could you disappoint me like this i will spend my entire life wishing that i could love you but i will always hate you a little for how you made me feel--even if it made me stronger"
i was drawing while looking completely normal; hunched, bended towards table and had a calm, focused expression on my face. but inside, i was losing my mind. i was pulling a whole ass yotaro "im actually scared of drawing" panel. but i looked normal. it's so weird to me that i can lose my mind while sitting there and doing something i don't even have to. i was lying in my bed carefree and i chose to lose my freaking mind and be scared over some pen and paper. casually, of course. i lost my mind so casually even i was amazed by it.
at some nights dying seems so unbearable that i wish it to happen right now so i could stop anticipating
bloom in the abyss
stormbringer concept thing
11-25-2023, 10 PM
On that day, the viscera of God fell on the world. Stringing itself up across the sky and into everything.
in thousands of agonies — I exist
Fly, fading past the bend;
I wait, just to watch it go.
– Ashes by Madi Diaz
the lesbians :(