"Sure Hope You Don't Have Friends Like Him." 11 Days.

I was tagged by @heartlessfujoshi​! Thanks!!

1 Nicknames: Dia (It took years to get people to call me that), before it was Mizi

2. Zodiac sign: Taurus

3. Height: 165 cm

4. Hogwarts House: Ravenclaw

5. Last thing I googled: smt4 wind turbine (i’m working on the challenge quests …)

6. Favorite musicians: Imagine Dragons and Revolverheld <3

7. Song stuck in my head: The Git Up by Blanco Brown

8. Following: 170

9. Followers: 448 (most of them are probably porn bots though … x’D)

10. Do you get asks?: Unfortunately not :’(

11. Amount of sleep: Ideally about 7 - 7,5 hours. But it actually varies between 5,5 and 9 hours.

12. Lucky number: 7 and 87 (hm, I wonder where the second one is from?)

13. What are you wearing?: sweatpants and a PJ shirt

14. Dream job: Something where I can keep learning new things. Something challenging. Something where I can manage my time to still have enough time for my hobbies.

15. Dream trip: A trip through Japan.

16. Instruments: I’m not talented at music, I’m afraid. I learned to play the recorder as a kid, but I don’t think I was any good.

17. Languages: I speak German and English, but I also know a little bit of Italian and Japanese. The first three make a pretty good combination, so if I have to, I can also read similar languages like French or Spanish or Dutch.

18. Favorite songs: Like 30 by Imagine Dragons. Way too many. I’ll pick 5 that I have a special connection to.

Only – Imagine Dragons

Something Just Like This – The Chainsmokers & Coldplay

Song 4 u – Ayumi Hamasaki

Sprinter – Kalafina

In The Shadows – The Rasmus

19. Five random facts:

1. I have four younger siblings (I’m the oldest) who are all taller than me, making me the smallest person in the family.

2. If there’s a TV playing anywhere in the room, I physically cannot concentrate on anything else anymore. I don’t have any problems listening to audiobooks while working on drawings or cosplay though.

3. I’ve been organizing a manga/anime/japan convention in my country for two years now, currently starting into year three. It’s small (about 1000 attendees), but still a lot bigger than we expected in this rural area.

4. I’m a happy crier. When somebody surprises me with something nice, i WILL absolutely start to cry.

5. My most priced possession is the scale figure of Ludger Kresnik from Tales Of Xillia 2 that my siblings got me for my birthday in 2017.

20. Aesthetic: Roses (absolute peak in combination with swords). Also stars and space.

I’ll tag @miramaare, @sacredmoonrising and @ignisfavilla. If you feel like it?

Okay, so. If becoming norted DOESN’T mean losing your free will, then what good would it do Xehanort to make Sora a vessel.

I am honestly so done with the Saix discourse around here.

Saix has Xehanort’s EYECOLOUR AND EARS for heaven’s sake. He is clearly at least influenced by Xehanort during his time in Org XIII. Not to mention he has a X carved into his forehead, X like keeping watch on people (see KH3D).

I always thought that Saix is losing more and more of himself to Xehanort, but that’s only my interpretation of course. He’s still at least partially himself, before his death in KH2, yes. He did terrible things, yes. I’m not saying those should be forgotten.

But please don’t forget, that he was also in a terrible situation and he was slowly losing his only support (= Lea). Situations have a huge impact on our decisions and behaviour, which has close to NOTHING to do with our personality. Feel free to google the fundamental attribution error on that one. Does this justify what he did? Not at all. Does this mean he shouldn’t be forgiven? Not. At. All. If he is willing to repent, then let him do it. EVERYONE DESERVES A SECOND CHANCE.

Then again, I’d like to take a look at the “terrible things” Isa/Saix did. The main problem I see is his behaviour towards Roxas and Xion, who would have needed support and whose situations were clearly made worse by him. Keep in mind that he deeply believes he doesn’t feel any emotions and nobody else around him does either. The definition of empathy (according to Dorsch, Lexikon der Psychologie [translated]) is the cognitive understanding and affective reciprocation of the assumed emotions of another being. Of course Saix doesn’t have any.

The “terrible things” I don’t understand, are those other people see in his interactions with Axel? Roxas and Xion hurt Axel’s mental state way more than Saix, not on purpose of course, but I strongly doubt Saix’ goal was to hurt Axel either. Saix and Axel are ARGUING. Axel doesn’t trust Saix and vice versa. Saix is angry, he’s sad, while he doesn’t acknowledge any of it. He tries to keep Axel close with their shared goal. With pressure, yes, which he didn’t have to, but they are still arguing, remember. There’s still a strong, unresolved conflict in between them. Don’t try to tell me, you’re always kind and caring in an argument, dear haters. Because BY SHARING HATE YOU ALREADY ARE CAUSING DAMAGE TO OTHER PEOPLE. I felt uneasy and irritated, I had sleepless hours thanks to those Saix hate posts. YOU caused me harm with your unnecessary discourse.

So what does this say about you? Shouldn’t you be forgiven?

... in which Lea, the mage, somehow managed to get turned into a cat.

For @ignisfavilla. Thank you for being such an amazing friend!

Happy new year 2017!

The Moon

Well, I figured after I already mentioned my "The Moon" cosplay, I could as well upload a few pictures of it. Photos were made by a friend of mine who's not on Tumblr. [gallery]

memories - an akusai one shot

Title: Memories Fandom: Kingdom Hearts Pairing: AkuSai/IsaLea (Axel x Saïx) Rating: General (Angst and Feels) Word Count: ~1,780

Summary: Lea returns to Radiant Garden, and bumps into someone he doesn’t expect to see. 

A/N: @herzblutrose had a birthday and I offered to write them some Akusai! :D But, because I am me, I wrote Akusads by mistake. LOL. I hope you’ll enjoy what I wrote! 

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It was strange, seeing Radiant Garden back to what it looked like prior to everything going to shit ten plus years ago. Lea never thought he’d see the world look the same as it did when he was growing up; he thought that the Darkness had stolen everything away and that it would be irreparable. But when Riku said it looked different than he remembered, he knew he had to take a Gummi ship and head there himself. There was still time - Sora was still trying to find out what the Real Organization XIII was up to. As long as Sora was occupied, then he would be free to do what he wanted for a little bit of time. 

Looking around, he’s surprised to see all the flowers are in bloom in the outer garden. It’s the first place he visits after touching down, and immediately felt astonished by seeing how it looked like when he was a teenager. How many hours had he spent in this area with his best friend - the person that he knew even back then that he was his other half. The missing part of his soul that always knew what to say and when to say it. 

His feet took him to the courtyard, a memory of a blond kid with a keyblade coming to the forefront of his mind. “From where I stood, the only thing you drew was a big L on your forehead for ‘Loser’, ‘Lame’, ‘Laughable’.” It hit him so fast that he had to put his hand out and rest against the stone gate, collecting his thoughts as his heart began to ache in a way that he wasn’t at all that prepared for. 

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AKUSAIMONTH // 2017 Day 1: Red & Blue

“Hey. Remember when we used to argue who the sky belongs to?”

“Because everything that’s blue was mine and everything in red yours? Yes, I do. You used to claim you’d overpower me in the evening.”

“Well… Can’t say I was wrong about that?”

“… Idiot.”

“Hehe. Anyway … What I was actually going to say: How about we call it a truce?”

“A truce.”

“Yeah, we never got to a conclusion. So let’s just say, we both own the sky.”

“That’s … This is stupid.”

“Heh. I knew you’d like the idea!”

[Day 1] [Day 2] [Day 3]

"But I promise to be there one day to wake you up." 12 Days.

Okay, imagine how different everything would have been if Aqua hadn't sacrificed herself for Terranort. It's sad that it was an act of deep friendship that paved the way for so many bad things ...

AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 14: SET C - “To Be Left”

It was no surprise when you left. When you betrayed me.

Everything I once believed in went away with you. All my schemes, all my plans.

The very last part of me that had still, foolishly, believed

was finally dead.

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Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 16: Jealousy

I don't even have the time to waste it like that. So go on playing with your little puppies if you so wish.

If you were wondering what I was doing this last week: I sold my soul to Satan once again in order to get those two cosplays done. And on the weekend I went to a con with my (twelve year old. Yes, TWELVE. Look at her, she's HUGE.) sister :D (the second youngest ... I've got four younger siblings @A@)

One day, I will finally manage to start earlier ... >___< (I mean ... my Astrid Cos was done in two days ... well, maybe three if I'd be very strict.) Then I wouldn't be stressed for days. Then I would have time for breaks and a healthy portion of sleep, and I wouldn't forget half of the costume at home <_<"

This was actually a gift for my sister. The cosplays and visiting the con, I mean. She had to win a "bet" first, namely: She had to do without sweets or sweet drinks or very fat food for the whole summer vacation (that lasts for two months here.) And well, she won. :) I don't care for any "beauty standards", but she was really getting into a weight-, and therefore a healthproblem and she definitely needed a push into a different direction. Wheter it helped or not ... well, we'll see.

Either way I am really proud of her, because she proved a whole lot of willpower in those two months, and that is definitely important just as well :)