𝚝𝚑!𝚗𝚜𝚙𝚘 !!

i cannot be ugly and fat. like pick a struggle bitch damn

I just realised that people don’t see me the same as I was just a few month ago, as a skinny 45kg beautiful young man.. they see me as a fat guy who is trying to compensate his weight by trying to look stylish and hot; but in reality I’m just fat and ugly. And that’s exactly how they see me.

tips for long-term ⭐️ving (might not work for you)

water, water, water, water!

sleep, just sleep

throw all the food in the fridge away (i live alone so it's fcking easy)

watching f@t people eat (utube tiktok etc)

put a bit of pink salt himalaya in your water cup, one/two cup a day to help with dizziness (normal salt also okay)

i usually go to uni library to avoid eating, or somewhere with many people (i cant eat outside so it worked for me)

i usually search on tiktok about f@t people (like "0bese, f@t, chubby") and read those body shaming comments, so that i dont eat

think about the guilt after you eat, u can write it down and stick on the wall that nearest you

tie a thin thread around ur waist

use the ugliest picture of yourself as your phone wallpaper, or the pic of your biggest enemy (if you think she/he is your goal)

ruin your food (mix it up with dishwashing liquid, or spray perfume on it)

think about gaining weights

tapping method (like use ur middle finger and tap on your forehead, collarbone, chin, cheeks, nose, lips etc) whenever you feel like eating

scroll tumbler or tiktok about 4n4 and 3d

think about male gaze (i know it bullshit but i have daddy issues so yeh)

eat fruits (if you dont want to complete ⭐), i recommend cucumber, strawberry and apple, or chia pudding

listen those 4n4 3d songs

i think that's all, i used it and it all worked FOR ME, i usually ⭐ for 2 weeks and spend 2 days to eat (fruits, yogurt, chia pudding, chicken breasts) and repeat it again

and remember when you reach ur goal weight, DONT 3at normal again immediately, start with 200 cals a day and increase a little bit day by day

(honestly i hate myself for write those tips down, i never wish 3d on anyone, but i need to vent)

Someone asked me what I looked like before getting fat, so here’s a pic of me in my prime (at my lw which was 45kg)

THIS is representation.

i dont see nearly enough queer shit on edblr. which like, if the majority of a group is cishet women, sure, not gon happen but im here to give a couple reminders

• if you arent a girl, your ed is not any less valid (if you ARE a girl, your ed is not any less valid)

• you can have an ed without the “goal” of looking “more feminine” (you can have an ed with the “goal” of looking “feminine”)

• you can post about having an ed and being queer/a therian/disabled

its a disorder, everyone can have it

I’m almost 23 fucking hours into my fast, let’s gooo-

Probably needed a hug, got a personality disorder instead 🥴

TW! Scary

Hunger nausea

Reblog if you cried

After three months and 10+kg I’ve decided to sit down in my one top and shorts… and this was my sign to lock tf in again.

Meansp0 is appreciated in comments ;].

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