Gender Fuckery - Blog Posts

I was trying to figure out what to call gender-fuckery if you couldn’t/didnt want to swear and I’ve settled on gender-muckery and I think I like it even more

Cosplaying my favorite sad wet gender cat at The Ineffable Con 5 / @theineffablecon

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I need some opinions and experiences that are not my own. I've been thinking about gender a lot lately and how I feel about how I present (For context I am a cisgender woman) and experience being a woman.

I have no fucking clue what that means.

I obviously have heard trans folk talk about how they just "felt like a girl" and I've always respected that 100% but it only just now occurred to me that I'm not sure if I've ever "felt like a girl". I'm not saying I feel like a boy, honestly I'm not sure I've ever felt like an anything!

I was born a girl, raised as a girl, and have always checked "female" on medical forms but it only just now occurs to me that I've never looked past the surface of this. I am a girl cause a couple people told me I was and I was cool with that but I wonder if I would feel the same if people had told me I was a boy.

I don't really know what this means or how to further look into this but I think getting other people's stories and experiences will be a good first step. Anyway if you read this please comment and help me figure out my gender fuckery that's currently ping ponging around my head.

do you ever get drunk enough that you low key think being a boy would be nice, or like an androgynous point in space and time

the closest I’ve ever come to gender dysphoria is wanting to claw away my skin until i reveal all the stardust resting in the deepest parts of me and tear it all out until i become part of the tapestry of the universe again