Physical Nonhuman - Blog Posts

Ever since I learned to cut the "but I know Im still completely human btw" bullshit in regards to my nonhumanity and instead just embraced the whole "Im literally a werewolf" mindset, Ive honestly been sooooo much happier and more confident with myself and my identity.

I feel so much more in-tune with my authentic self, and my overall expression is much better aligned with how I perceive myself. My species dysphoria certainly hasn't disappeared, but it's miles more manageable than it was even compared to a year ago, which ironically has also helped me learn to love the parts of me that are still human. Im so much more balanced now, and the internalized shame I struggled with for so long is steadily eroding away. Even something as simple as casually making jokes to my friends about how they might catch me prowling the forest on a full moon is infinitely more affirming than constantly trying to convince humans that I "didn't actually believe I was an animal".

I am a real life lycanthrope. I'm never going to deny that part of myself ever again. Fuck trying to make yourself palatable for human social norms.

from one nonhuman to another - I need help!

hi,

I normally don't make these types of posts, but with my commissions and adopts not doing well, I need as much help as I can get. tl;dr, i need to help pay medical bills/medicine for my partner who cannot do it himself alone. the whole thing is very sensitive and personal so i cant get into it much, but it would literally save his life. my commissions and adopts are always up if anyone is interested, and donations or tips are always welcome. it would mean a lot to us if you could help out considering that i currently can't hold up a job due to my own mental health being too poor to handle it.

shares are super appreciated even if you can't donate or commission me! I take paypal! thank you for your time!

Absolutely feel this!!!

Although we ourselves aren't "physically" nonhuman. Sadly, this body is human, no matter how much we wish it weren't. Though we are fully nonhuman.

Many people probably wouldn't get the difference between the two, but for us, there is a difference no matter how small it might be. Honesty, the main difference is that we feel we aren't allowed to call ourselves one because of the fact that this body is human.

Physical nonhumans are very safe here, and they don't have to call themselves delusional or anything like that. If you are physically nonhuman, you are safe to fully be yourself on our blog. We would love to see more physical nonhumans around!!

It's sad that this is something we actually have to mention because, honestly, it should just be known and shit. It's sad that the distrust and fear of people who hurt others makes this required to be said so that people can know that they are safe here.

We aren't hurting anyone, so why can't we be ourselves?

Hopefully, one day, we can be free to be yourselves.

- Shay 🐾

The Struggle of Misanthropy

I find myself often struggling with feelings of Misanthropy, they are to me not feelings I particularly like. I know where they come from and why they exist, and even though I do not like them, I understand where they come from and that it is not unreasonable for me to have them. (Continued below the break - Length: 2078 words)

I find that often the community has this push against misanthropy and for particular positivity of humans and humanity, even to the point of shaming those of us who have those feelings including from trauma and hurt. I have a couple friends on here who have expressed either in general or to me that feeling that they have to hide those feelings or worry I will react badly to it. I feel it myself worrying about expressing particular anger for things done to me.

I do think there are multiple types and levels of misanthropy, and it seems likely we are using the same word for different experiences, and perhaps I am using this word wrong. I had discussed this topic after some back and forth with Rani on the subject and determined that we were more or less talking about different aspects of the same word but maybe there is another word that better describes my own relationship with humanity.

There is that misanthropy that seems to take the form of ecofascism, of humans being a virus or particularly evil or destructive. There is misanthropy that takes the form mainly of a belief in superiority in themselves over the humans for various justifications. There is the misanthropy that stems largely from hurt from the actions of humans to the individual themselves that seems to come as fear and distrust and discontentment towards them. I am certain there is a lot of other varieties and there can be crossover between them.

I do not think humans are inherently evil or even uniquely destructive beyond their numbers and intelligence. Heck the penis worm may have ended the Ediacaran. Nor do I think the bad things humans have done to myself, and others, is something inherent to them. Humans are a very communal species who only survived off their collaboration between each other and other animals, but now live in a very stressful environment that encourages individuality and often rewards cruelty. Painted Dogs similarly are very communal and cooperative animals in their packs but confined to captivity can kill each other. A similar story exists for orca as well especially during the earlier days of captivity. Nor do I believe myself superior to the humans. I do find these first two types of misanthropy rather frustrating, but still like my own experience, it seems mostly to come from hurt people, people who have been abused by humans with power over them, people who have been isolated from their communities. I do not think most people come to hating humans just from the blue. My companion for instance does often echo the humans are a cancer idea from their own pain. It is at times frustrating, but I understand at least where it comes from, all the pain within them.

For myself I experience the third type. I do not hate the humans, but I do not particularly like them. I fear them. I distrust them. For me, the humans are in charge, and I have to obey them. They control the food; they control where I live; they control what happens to me and how much I hurt. If I obey them then things will be better for me. I am allowed to live outside of a hospital because I have been good and obedient. I am allowed to have my own life because I have been good and obedient. The humans have hurt me, and they continue to hurt me.

One of the common retorts to this is that it isn't fair to humans to judge them all for the actions of a few. The problem is it is not just a few, and it is not something in the past, it is something ongoing still. I still have to take pills I do not want that keep my body in this human form to be able to live outside a hospital, and if I did not take them I would be put away again and forced still to take the pills, and every step I refused to comply would only result in greater restriction until I complied or could no longer resist. It is true though only a few humans hurt me directly, only a few humans twisted my body into this shape and only a few humans did everything that was done to me in hospitals. But how many humans work in those hospitals supporting those doctors? How many humans enforce the will of those doctors and hospitals? How many people support what was done to myself and others, think that it is right and best for us, or sometimes even a gift? How many people think that what was done to me was necessary? How many think it is just how things are, maybe it isn't great but it cannot be changed? Not all of these people are equally culpable certainly, but the number of people who support this system which hurts us is really very high and I see it constantly all the time, even in just the small jokes people make. While only a few humans hold immediate power over me, in every human, or creature that fills the role of a human, for me is fear, is a need that I must obey, for they have an incredible power over me to hurt me if I do not give them what they want, and that if they do hurt me, even if they broke the rules of their society, no human would ever help me. For me, complete submission to the demands of the humans (at least externally) is the only way for my continued existence and my presence to be tolerated, and the pain I am given to be minimised.

Do not think therians are excused or immune from this; many therians do the same to us as well. I do find many therians extremely human. I find often their concerns, their desires, and their biases are often very human just with a little bit more. I know a number of people have described therianthropy as essentially human+. Therianthropy is a pretty wide spectrum of experience, and it is not inherently wrong to be on the more human side of that experience, I am simply unable to relate to it, but because of the biases many of them carry, they often hurt those like me, and you reading this may perpetuate things that do hurt those like me.

I have never really felt welcome in the therian community despite being here for near a decade now. It was not until around two or three years ago I felt comfortable to call myself a therian. I have schizophrenia and clinical zoanthropy (often shortened to CLCZ here), or those are at least the humans’ explanations of what I experience/d. The community has for a long time not been good to zoanthropes. I have been unwelcome in a lot of communities and it was often made clear to me over and over my experience was not the same as theirs. In order to be tolerated generally it had to be a fairly accepting community, normally of older therians, but with the caveat that if I ever described my experience I would have to play down my experience. I would have to always reassure everyone that I knew I was experiencing a delusion, and that none of it was real, not like their experiences were. I have been continuously isolated from what is ostensibly my own community, and in a community of outsiders, still an outsider, at best merely tolerated at the edge, but still an interloper in -their- space. In an almost mirror of a phrase I see often from therians of “too human to be with animals, to animal to be among human,” I am too human to be among my kind, but still too animal for many therians.

Things have gotten a bit better in the past decade, and particularly so on tumblr of people becoming more open with things like physical non-humanity. I am happy to have joined here, for one the relative anonymity means I can sometimes talk back, sometimes try to fight just a little bit and be heard, but also for the connections I have made, particularly with Dune, Sonar, Xem and Ike. I am very happy to have met other CLCZs. I do not feel so alone, there are others like me out there, and there are others like me on here, others I can connect with finally.

Still despite this, discussions of us not being welcome come up often. Anytime physical non-humanity comes up it does often come to demonising CLCZs as insane, dangerous, or needing serious help. Similarly, too many therians seem very eager to throw CLCZs under the bus when it comes to justifying their existence, particularly to the broader public and anti-kin. For the most part I can avoid it, but still, it keeps popping up. Even among those who do defend us and accept us, there is still a price for us to be tolerated. Many times, the justification why CLCZs are acceptable (particularly in the context of discussions of P-shifters) is that we acknowledge our experiences as delusion and that it is important that we tag our posts with unreality and delusion. Some people will say that those tags do not mean that the experiences are not real they just do not occur in -Reality-. For me at least I read it that the price of being tolerated is still to say my experiences are not real, my past and the things done to me and others is not real. I am tired of having to deny my own experiences as genuine for the comfort of others, I am tired of having to double bookkeep in every aspect of my life, including the places that are supposed to be safe and an outlet for me. I know what the humans think of my condition, and for that matter many therians, but I think I will stop tagging my experience with unreality and delusion, because they are not. I often think to drop the label for myself for feeling unwelcome and instead just use zoanthrope, even if that does not accurately capture myself either as it is still a word given to us by the humans for a delusion, but at least it is my community where I am welcome.

The truth is though, I do not hate the humans. I desire very much reconciliation. Still, as I am being actively hurt by the humans how -can- there be any reconciliation? I am very fortunate to have a few therians and even a couple of humans in my life I can be pretty open with about my experience. I know reconciliation is possible, but even with these close humans and therians (who for me fill the role of a human), I feel that I must obey them to be tolerated, not for their own actions, but for the scars on me from the actions of many humans.

Someday I will return to the water – I cannot survive in the wild – and likely I will go into a tank. I hope, when I do, I will be with my other cetacean friends. The humans did do me a number of kindnesses and made me clever enough that I can more or less fix my body and return to the water. I think only once there can reconciliation begin, with the main point of obedience removed and the cruellest damage the humans did to me, that of being forced to be human. I know that life as a captive cetacean would not be perfect and would carry with it many struggles and pain, and I have no doubt the humans will still hurt me some, I do not expect that others will never hurt me again – I will still often have to obey the humans, but now more as a cetacean than a human. But at least back in the water I could be myself, from the water I could look up at the humans on the edge of the tank and know that I survived and I persisted and I am free. Perhaps I may even bond with some kind trainers. In time those deep scars across me will start to fade – and with it that anger, that fear, that distrust. Though those scars will never fully heal, they will begin to look like the scars on many other captive cetaceans and we -can- reconcile at last.

Zwem ver, zwem vrij, kleine walvis, zwem voor altijd

~Kala

I think I'm a centaur???

guys if someone did an X-ray on me they wouldn't see anything human

I'd have my bones and joints that turn 180 degrees so I can climb freely, a stomach that can eat any bug or creature smaller than me, sharp teeth and sharp claws

my flowing blood would be wild and feral like the animal I am

LATE TO THE TREND BUT FUCK IT WE BALL

🐾 SPECIES TRANSITION GOALS 🦴

things i already have done and plan to do for species affirmation and euphoria

plan to do:

permanent fang implants!! my canines are already naturally sharp but i want fang implants to really make them more pronounced

angel fang piercings!! im assuming it will probably take some time to get the fang implants done so id love to get angel fangs in the meantime

paw socks and paw arm warmers!! for doing quads in to minimize dysphoria while im running around and to cushion my paws because i havent built up callouses quite yet

hair lightening and a perm!! id want to go a golden blonde with a white streak in the front to match my type and curly because well- blonde and curly = tommyinnit

testosterone!! make my bark rougher and deeper and gimme fur *grabby hands*

nipless top surgery!! dogs dont have nips that high up silly :P

tattoos!! paw pads on all four of my paws, and claw marks to cover my top surgery scars

paw shoes!! like actual paws not just drawing on toe slits. i want to eventually add furry toes onto my vans

already have done:

social transitioning!! im slowly but surely working on getting my friends used to treating me like a dog and desensitizing them to me wearing gear regularly and casually

silicone base tail!! much more realistic wags and sits a lot more naturally than taxidermy keychain tails (i do still wear those from time to time though)

classic therian mask commission!! tackles both ear and muzzle dysphoria at once and it looks like me ehe

fursuit paws!! theyre absolutely fantastic for dysphoria and stimming but not the most convenient for doing quads in

ears headband set!! posable for maximum euphoria :3

collars and jingly accessories!! dog collar looking chokers, an actual collar, normal chokers, spiked chokers. earrings that jingle, belt chains that jingle, collar tags with my name and pronouns that jingle, bracelets and rings that jingle, hair charms that jingle. amazing.

coloured contacts!! white ones for a more wolfish look and ones accurate to my eye colour in headspace which switches between magenta and teal

hey everyone, please remember you can accept and acknowledge your physical/biological nonhumaness and *still* take care of your body

accepting that your body isn't human doesn't stop you from taking care of the body you do have, and please don't think that it does (I saw an argument that said accepting your body as not being biologically human will cause those to neglect themselves)

it isn't wrong to understand that your body isn't human (mine isn't, in anyway)

but just for a general life thing:

drink water and eat meals

bathe yourself

it's good to get doctor checkups if able

brush your fangs and teeth+gums and your tongue

spend some time outside :)

why can't I be theriform...

tbh kinda a serious post

I feel like the therian community is kinda losing what therianthropy means. Esp the newer people. I’ve seen therians that wear gear be rude to therians that don’t. It was because they saw them as invalid.

Please don’t lose sight of what therianthropy actually is. And just because someone isn’t wearing gear doesn’t mean that they “aren’t a real therian” they just express themselves differently.

I felt like this was a reminder worth saying due to some stuff I see lolz

Not all transspecies people are physical nonhumans, not all physical nonhumans are holotheres, and not all holotheres are transspecies

You don't have to be one thing to be the other(s) and being one doesn't automatically make you the other(s)

You choose what labels fit you

Transspecies ≠ physical nonhuman ≠ holothere ≠ Transspecies

You don't have to transition to be transspecies

You don't have to have dysphoria to be transspecies

You can already be your -type and use transspecies

Being transspecies doesn't just mean becoming an animal

We've been seeing a lot of beings in the community being ridiculous about physical and biological nonhumanity so here's this for yall.

(Everything stated here is based off of what we've seen/read and experienced ourself. We're not trying to "indoctrinate" anybody.)

-Physical nonhumans who are physically nonhuman metaphorically (this is my body, I am this, therefore my body is this) are valid.

-Physical nonhumans who are physically nonhuman literally are valid.

-Physical nonhumans who are physically *and* biologically nonhuman are valid.

-Physical nonhumans who experience delusions regarding their nonhumanity are valid.

-Physical nonhumans who are literally physically and/or biologically nonhuman who don't believe themselves to be delusional are valid. (me btw)

-Physical nonhumans who are literally physically and/or biologically nonhuman who don't believe themselves to be delusional even after being diagnosed are valid.

-Physical nonhumans who experience delusions regarding their nonhumanity AND who don't want/have the energy (or for whatever reason) to double bookkeep when talking about those experiences are valid.

-And any other physical and/or biological nonhuman experiences I missed (sorry /gen) YOU ARE VALID.

-Physical and biological nonhumanity in any way or form is valid.

kind of feeling like the shift from “physical nonhumanity is a term for those who literally physically experience their body as nonhuman” to “physical nonhumanity includes literally any nonhuman because they feel like they metaphorically or philosophically, not physically, have a nonhuman body” is so similar to the bastardization of the word “therian” by those who don’t actually identify as therians.

specifically in the case of physical nonhumans, i see it following this pattern and slowly becoming unsafe for those who are actually literally physically nonhuman to use that term. because now those who aren’t, but who still claim to be physically nonhuman, are the ones going “ew, you ACTUALLY think you have the body of an animal?? that’s clinical lycanthropy, you’re just delusional!!” and “physical nonhumans don’t ACTUALLY think we have nonhuman bodies. we know we’re human!!”

like we’re being pushed out of our own spaces, our own terms.

don’t you see? history repeating itself? “therians don’t ACTUALLY think we’re animals, that’s clinical lycanthropy!! if you ACTUALLY identify as an animal, you’re delusional!!”

it irks me that folks insist on claiming words that were not meant for them and then push out those who were already using it. why not make your own term if you want it to mean something different?

sometimes just existing as an animal is enough. I don't have to explain myself, or do super fancy things, or buy super expensive gear, just being an animal is enough.

I love you therians with weird urges

I love you therians who are struggling to find their place here

I love you therians who are physically your type

I love you therians who are furries

I love you therians with rare types

I love you therians woth common types

I love you nonhumans

I love you and I hope you're safe

whats ur fav mythical creature and why? also do u have any gear? (doesnt have to be tails or masks or nth, like bracelets or anything)

OMG MY FIRST ASK!! hello!!

Fav mythical creature: honestly probably a couple, dragons bc of nostalgic reasons and have a close connection with them due to family, and anything cryptid

Gear: mhm! the "normal" gear I own is one tail and two collars (which I don't wear super often due to sensory issues but other than that I love them) I also have a few clothing items I like bc they have the colors of my fur plus are warm and cozy :3

thank you so much for sending an ask!

I'm physically water and all the symbolism it represents :3

UNIQUE THERIANS/ALTERHUMANS CALL OUT POST !!!!!

Reblog/Comment with whatever your unique/niche theriotype or kintype is !!!

I wanna meet some new critters !!!

My unique one(s) are:

Slugcats + 2000's Webcore conceptkin !!!

Hi! I'm nonhuman in every way. Including, but not limited to, emotionally, spiritually, psychologically, physically, and biologically.

"But you know you're actually human, right?"

... no.

is ANYONE out there a bassariscus astutus? (Ringtail, also mistakenly known as a Ringtail cat or miners cat) Either kin, or kith, or anything PLEASE I want to talk to more of our species!

I love you psychological nonhumans,

I love you spiritual nonhumans,

I love you religious nonhumans,

I love you nonhumans who take your identity very seriously and it effects every aspect of your life,

I love you nonhumans who don’t take their identity very seriously at all,

I love you older nonhumans,

I love you younger nonhumans,

I love you disabled nonhumans,

I love you queer nonhumans,

I love you mentally ill nonhumans,

I love you neurodivergent nonhumans,

I love you nonhumans with obscure identities,

I love you nonhumans with super common identities,

I love you nonhumans who wear gear and I love you nonhumans who don’t,

I love you nonhumans who have body mods related to their identity,

I love you nonhumans who experience dysphoria and euphoria,

I love you nonhumans ❤️

I find it funny that some anti-therians say stuff like “well, you can’t be an animal, because if I put you out in the woods right now you wouldn’t be able to survive!!” Like… yeah. If you take a fox and force it to live in a house with humans for its whole life, it won’t be able to survive in the wild. That doesn’t make it not a fox???

as a personal thing, I don't think I like the term therian anymore, it just, it feels like it's connecting me to humanity too much

I am not a human, or even connected to humanity at all which is why I really like just being called a holothere or nonhuman

(this is just a personal experience for me, I know not everyone relates to this!!)

EDIT: I AM NOT SAYING THOSE WHO ARE THERIANS ARE HUMANS!!!!! I personally am not comfortable with the term and do not like it. But I also understand that those who are therian are also not humans!! We all have a different, or no, connection with humanity. Physical therians do exist!

Non-therians with a big online presence don't talk about therainthropy without doing research challenge IMPOSSIBLE???

I want to make it painfully clear that I am in no way trying to "cancel" Pukicho and frankly I'm not even that upset with this post. With that being said, I do still feel the need to acknowledge that people outside our community are still painting this picture of us just being "kids just having fun playing pretend." Which is just...so incorrect...so very incorrect.

I am an animal. I hate hiding the fact that parts of being an animal are vicious, upsetting, gross, even unwanted.

If you are not a human in literally any way, please play into your animalistic side. Being an animal is dirty, unclean, wild, chaotic, and so so much more than how it is presented on the surface of a lot of therian/otherkin/etc communities.

Animals have animal instincts, I am not wrong for having these instincts, whatever they may be.

There is nothing wrong with not being this but so many creatures and beings are this and should not be afraid of who they really are.

Be your true wild self.

my species dysphoria affects ALL aspects of myself. some people seem to think it's just getting a tail and ears and suddenly all's well that ends well- but no. that's not what it's like for me. it runs so much deeper than that. this ENTIRE body is wrong- it's SPECIES dysphoria. my SPECIES is WRONG. I should have been born my kintype. why I wasn't, why I was cursed to be a species that does not fit me, I will never know.

if I wrote my intro post but with my real paws

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grow out your mane.

grow out your body and facial hair.

be naked when you're home alone.

drink water with your hands.

eat with your hands.

eat raw food (if it's safe to anyway-)

go outside barefoot (again, if it's safe. broken glass and nails on the sidewalk aren't a joke)

I might not be human but if I'm gonna be forced to live as one, I might as well be the most animalistic human I can be.

don't care if I get misogynistic insults like "ew facial hair on a girl!" (im a transguy and nb but yk they don't care about that)

my life my choice

did anyone get like phantom shifts (or any at all) when they where younger and didn't know what they were or really question them until you learned about being nonhuman/alter human? a LOT in my childhood makes sense now learning I'm not a human