convinced everyone im better but im actually worse
me because i did sm work convincing everyone that i got better and i cant destroy that now
I don’t think it’s body dysmorphia anymore i think i am just kinda fat LOL.
the only thing thats always on my mind is my weight
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diets to try in new year! im going to try the hello kitty one in jan, but when my body is more used to not eating ill try skeleton 💕
day twelve
i normally eat a smaller portion of whatever my mum cooks, so alot of asian food and rice. i also eat frozen grapes alot and i drink an ungodly amount of green juices and coke zero
day ten
pastries and homemade food. i loved eating danishes and croissants, but now all i see is calories and homemade food doesnt have nutritional labels or serving portions, so its too risky
i feel so stupid talking about my issues compared to my friends. like, i cant eat food without having a breakdown and my mind wanders whenever i see something sharp, but every time i try and talk about it i sound idiotic
This shit is such a scam
The number goes down by a lot, body looks same
The number goes slightly up, AND I LOOK LIKE A ROTTING WHALE WTF
i have been gaining and losing the same MOTHERFUCKING kilogram for a month this is not okay
me because my weight starts with a 5 not a 3