IDC THAT SHE WAS ON SHIMMER AND FICTIONAL

IM SO PROUD I had a roughhhh week last week and today I stayed under my calorie limit!! Tomorrow should be the same, but I’m staying home Wednesday and my mom always makes me eat at least two meals and usually snacks so we’ll see :( STILL IM SUPER HAPPY WITH TODAY. I ate less than enough, drank a lotttt of water, got eight hours of sleep, and did most of my workout!

DAY TWO of locking the fuck in again bc I have to lose at least seven pounds by summer 🗣️🗣️

Okay OMAD is still going well, I just wish my family didn’t pay so much attention. Also all the calories today are a little iffy bc a lot of this I couldn’t properly measure.

I ate three bits of pound cake bc I was forced to socially (about 40 cal) and Pad Kra Pao. TBH I have no clue how many calories that was. According to google it could be anything from 200-700+ cals. I’m thinking it’s on the smaller side bc my family uses NO spices but idk.

I was exhausted today (testing while starving is NOT for the weak aka me) so I only walked one mile and did a couple dance workouts. That should have burnt around 150-200 calories. Overall no matter how much the Pad Kra Pao was it was still a deficit, and I’m proud to have kept up these workouts/drinking more water. Tomorrow I have the day off school and I probably won’t be able to walk bc my mom started questioning me about it. She pretty much knows I have an ED so “overworking” myself via exercise will freak her out. Unless I could find a way to sneak around her but we’ll see. Here’s to not binging on my day off ✊

I was literally just thinking about this earlier but yeahhhh my original gw was 110 lb and I’m lighter than that now with a much lighter gw.

haha more memes because im definetly coping

I was being a whiney bitch at school bc my stomach hurt and someone said “yeah bc you starve yourself, you literally never eat” YAY PEOPLE ARE NOTICING superrrr validating

I hate binging

it makes me feel sick and gross and ugly

when I eat too much I want the feeling to go away as fast as possible

Dear future me, please don’t ever binge

@na is making me touch starved, I fear. I jerk away every time someone touches me because I don’t want them to feel how f@t I am. Even though literally no one gives a fuck except me.

My parents finally had the “you’re too skinny and looking too much weight” talk with me, which is obviously not fucking true. Now they’re yelling at me when I try to turn down food and forcing me to eat more. Istg I’m going to go insane. Sorry for being super inactive I just feel trapped as hell, I’m sure I’ve gained.

I’m still so pissed my last account was t-worded I didn’t realize how much I would miss my regular feed/the same people liking my posts and stuff this is so isolating :( if y’all don’t like smth block don’t report bc we literally always come back just feeling worse

Okay literally no one is going to see this but I need to vent. TW for an @na related vent ig

Okay my last account got t-worded and like two weeks later my parents confronted me about my ED and have been making me eat a lot more. I got caught in a binge cycle for about two weeks where I’d fast for two days, binge, OMAD, then binge for three days. It was disgusting and easily one of my lowest points with this shit. I’ve just barely been able to break that and been going back to my regular workouts/fasting. Today I managed to sneak away from my parents to weigh myself on a public scale (no scale in house bc my parents are super fucking onto me about this) and I gained FOUR POUNDS. WTF. I’ve never gained more than like two pounds since developing an 3d, I feel so gross. Great motivation but I’m also SO scared for summer break when I’m around my family all the time. Just going to eat as little as possible, give me all your motivation PLEASEEE. Currently 107 lb or 48 KG, feel free to f@t sh@m3 me and shit like that.

Since loosing a lot of weight in a couple months I’ve noticed I’m cold CONSTANTLY, which is amazing bc I used to be hot and sweaty all the time. Now I can wear lots of cute layers and long sleeves and still feel chilly! Summer is going to be SOOOOO much nicer like this