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DAY FOUR OF LOCKING TF IN

I did pretty solid today, I managed to eat a small cookie without it triggering a binge. Continued with OMAD, hopefully will OMAD tomorrow as well. I’m going to a movie with my friend so I’ll bring some gum so I don’t eat the popcorn.

Consumed: 650 ish? Kinda hard to tell

Burnt: 60 (not as much as usual but blehhhh)

Total: 590 ish

Not much to say. I’ve definitely noticed my bloating going down but idk if I’ve actually lost anything. My parents are super onto me. Lowkey I’m at the point where stomach bloating is a pain but mostly easy to work off(?) but my arms/legs are HUGE and I hate it. My calves are actually pretty muscular and my lower arms are super skinny but my upper arms are HUGE

Day three of LOCKING TF IN

Okay so I couldn’t OMAD or workout today bc I was home with my parents and they triggered a binge by making me eat more than I’d like. I’m glad I was kind of able to stop myself but god I hate binging so much. I feel so out of control. It’s much easier to not eat at all than it is to stop. I set a goal of max ten meals per week and I’ve used four so hopefully I can do a 48 hour fast before the weekend or smth.

Consumed: hard to say, max 1300 which is fucking disgusting but tbh I don’t think it was actually that much

Burnt: whatever you naturally burn in a day idk

Overall yes I’m pissed I binged, that sucks so fucking hard. But I’ve been trying to break a binge cycle and this is kind of progress? I guess? It was a lot better than my past binges and it was actually triggered, not just for no reason.

Me trying to finish a 30+ hour fast:

DAY TWO of locking the fuck in again bc I have to lose at least seven pounds by summer 🗣️🗣️

Okay OMAD is still going well, I just wish my family didn’t pay so much attention. Also all the calories today are a little iffy bc a lot of this I couldn’t properly measure.

I ate three bits of pound cake bc I was forced to socially (about 40 cal) and Pad Kra Pao. TBH I have no clue how many calories that was. According to google it could be anything from 200-700+ cals. I’m thinking it’s on the smaller side bc my family uses NO spices but idk.

I was exhausted today (testing while starving is NOT for the weak aka me) so I only walked one mile and did a couple dance workouts. That should have burnt around 150-200 calories. Overall no matter how much the Pad Kra Pao was it was still a deficit, and I’m proud to have kept up these workouts/drinking more water. Tomorrow I have the day off school and I probably won’t be able to walk bc my mom started questioning me about it. She pretty much knows I have an ED so “overworking” myself via exercise will freak her out. Unless I could find a way to sneak around her but we’ll see. Here’s to not binging on my day off ✊

Day one of getting back tf on track

OMAD, my family gave me extra food so it was kind of more OMAD + snacks but it was fruits so it’s fine I guess

Calories consumed: 500 (494 but I’m rounding)

Calories burnt: 160

Calories in total: 340

Guys I’m feeling SO GOOD hopefully I can keep it up :333

Manifesting -5kg for everyone who reblogs

AFAB anablr is half cis girl “get skinny so you can be a fem feminine girly girl angel girl!” And half trans guy “get skinny bc maybe under all that skin there’s a boys body.” Both are equally as delusional but I’m on both sides so I can’t speak.

@na is making me touch starved, I fear. I jerk away every time someone touches me because I don’t want them to feel how f@t I am. Even though literally no one gives a fuck except me.

I’m locking in for m@lnutrition may or whatever tf we’re calling it. I hate this stupid fucking weight I’ve put on I am so beyond depressed lately. I had a major performance today, it went great and all I can think about is that four pounds I gained while trying to reassure my parents that I’m not disordered. They know, I’m sick of gaining weight trying to make them think I’m not. I hate myself so much, I hate that I couldn’t enjoy my performance. I am getting to my goals if it fucking kills me idc

Okay literally no one is going to see this but I need to vent. TW for an @na related vent ig

Okay my last account got t-worded and like two weeks later my parents confronted me about my ED and have been making me eat a lot more. I got caught in a binge cycle for about two weeks where I’d fast for two days, binge, OMAD, then binge for three days. It was disgusting and easily one of my lowest points with this shit. I’ve just barely been able to break that and been going back to my regular workouts/fasting. Today I managed to sneak away from my parents to weigh myself on a public scale (no scale in house bc my parents are super fucking onto me about this) and I gained FOUR POUNDS. WTF. I’ve never gained more than like two pounds since developing an 3d, I feel so gross. Great motivation but I’m also SO scared for summer break when I’m around my family all the time. Just going to eat as little as possible, give me all your motivation PLEASEEE. Currently 107 lb or 48 KG, feel free to f@t sh@m3 me and shit like that.

Ughhhggggg my parents definitely know I saw stuff about “signs of 3Ds in my kid” and stuff like that in their search bars. Plus they’ve been on my ass lately I’d be shocked if I’ve gained less than five pounds.

Logging back onto Tumblr after a completely avoidable binge

Lmao this post was actually the one that got my last blog t-worded, nothing else I ever posted blew up like this. Weird to see it in the wild.

The results I expect after one good day:

Hey people I’m attempting recovery, so basically see y’all again in like a week and a half

Okay I’ve done 24-30 hours without eating but most of that was while sleeping, this is my first time going a full day without eating and I feel AMAZING, completely on top of the world. I should be able to skip eating tomorrow until at least 12 pm? Depending on when my family forces me to eat, but WOW I feel great. So so proud of myself :3

Okay guys I need to lock in. So far I’m doing good today, got back on track with my workout and haven’t eaten anything yet, but I need to STAY CONSISTENT holy shit. I’m sick of doing great all week while at school then binging over the weekend bc my family wants me to eat more. This sucks ASS so hopefully telling y’all will keep me on track.

I was being a whiney bitch at school bc my stomach hurt and someone said “yeah bc you starve yourself, you literally never eat” YAY PEOPLE ARE NOTICING superrrr validating

My parents finally had the “you’re too skinny and looking too much weight” talk with me, which is obviously not fucking true. Now they’re yelling at me when I try to turn down food and forcing me to eat more. Istg I’m going to go insane. Sorry for being super inactive I just feel trapped as hell, I’m sure I’ve gained.

Since loosing a lot of weight in a couple months I’ve noticed I’m cold CONSTANTLY, which is amazing bc I used to be hot and sweaty all the time. Now I can wear lots of cute layers and long sleeves and still feel chilly! Summer is going to be SOOOOO much nicer like this

I’m actually about to tweak tf out a distant family member is visiting for a couple days and my parents made me eat a LOT more in just the couple hours he’s been here. I’ve been begging my friend to invite me over for a sleepover because I’ve been doing so fucking well lately and loosing weight and this will not mess it up.

IM SO PROUD I LOST A POUND I THOUGHT FOR SURE I HAD MAINTAINED EHEHEHEHE not to mentioned I weighed myself after eating bc I didn’t have a chance before so maybe I lost even less? Idk probably wistful thinking STILL SUPER PROUD SUMMER GOALS HERE I COME

Restaurants that don’t include calories on their menus are my biggest opps fr

Okay so far this week OMAD is going well but 570 calories in one meal is ridiculous. Could be worse but still

IM SO PROUD I had a roughhhh week last week and today I stayed under my calorie limit!! Tomorrow should be the same, but I’m staying home Wednesday and my mom always makes me eat at least two meals and usually snacks so we’ll see :( STILL IM SUPER HAPPY WITH TODAY. I ate less than enough, drank a lotttt of water, got eight hours of sleep, and did most of my workout!

Please Reblog is Your Blog is Safe for Non-Binary People.

If my mutuals can’t rb this then we can’t be mutuals

I hate binging

it makes me feel sick and gross and ugly

when I eat too much I want the feeling to go away as fast as possible

Dear future me, please don’t ever binge

I was literally just thinking about this earlier but yeahhhh my original gw was 110 lb and I’m lighter than that now with a much lighter gw.

haha more memes because im definetly coping

My mom is super suspicious of my ED so I can’t weigh myself near her anymore. I’m locking in this week and going over to my friends house this weekend so I can weigh myself then. If I don’t loose weight by then I think I’ll go insane. Like actually, literally I will crash out and go feral.