Hey People I’m Attempting Recovery, So Basically See Y’all Again In Like A Week And A Half

Day three of LOCKING TF IN

Okay so I couldn’t OMAD or workout today bc I was home with my parents and they triggered a binge by making me eat more than I’d like. I’m glad I was kind of able to stop myself but god I hate binging so much. I feel so out of control. It’s much easier to not eat at all than it is to stop. I set a goal of max ten meals per week and I’ve used four so hopefully I can do a 48 hour fast before the weekend or smth.

Consumed: hard to say, max 1300 which is fucking disgusting but tbh I don’t think it was actually that much

Burnt: whatever you naturally burn in a day idk

Overall yes I’m pissed I binged, that sucks so fucking hard. But I’ve been trying to break a binge cycle and this is kind of progress? I guess? It was a lot better than my past binges and it was actually triggered, not just for no reason.

Please Reblog is Your Blog is Safe for Non-Binary People.

If my mutuals can’t rb this then we can’t be mutuals

AFAB anablr is half cis girl “get skinny so you can be a fem feminine girly girl angel girl!” And half trans guy “get skinny bc maybe under all that skin there’s a boys body.” Both are equally as delusional but I’m on both sides so I can’t speak.

My mom is super suspicious of my ED so I can’t weigh myself near her anymore. I’m locking in this week and going over to my friends house this weekend so I can weigh myself then. If I don’t loose weight by then I think I’ll go insane. Like actually, literally I will crash out and go feral.

I hate binging

it makes me feel sick and gross and ugly

when I eat too much I want the feeling to go away as fast as possible

Dear future me, please don’t ever binge

Guyssss my last account got t-worded :(( I figured it might happen at some point but that still suckssss. My last account was literally-gwenpool if anyone wanted to know lol.

Me trying to finish a 30+ hour fast:

IM SO PROUD I LOST A POUND I THOUGHT FOR SURE I HAD MAINTAINED EHEHEHEHE not to mentioned I weighed myself after eating bc I didn’t have a chance before so maybe I lost even less? Idk probably wistful thinking STILL SUPER PROUD SUMMER GOALS HERE I COME

My parents finally had the “you’re too skinny and looking too much weight” talk with me, which is obviously not fucking true. Now they’re yelling at me when I try to turn down food and forcing me to eat more. Istg I’m going to go insane. Sorry for being super inactive I just feel trapped as hell, I’m sure I’ve gained.