Day Three Of LOCKING TF IN

Guyssss my last account got t-worded :(( I figured it might happen at some point but that still suckssss. My last account was literally-gwenpool if anyone wanted to know lol.

I’m actually about to tweak tf out a distant family member is visiting for a couple days and my parents made me eat a LOT more in just the couple hours he’s been here. I’ve been begging my friend to invite me over for a sleepover because I’ve been doing so fucking well lately and loosing weight and this will not mess it up.

Can someone pls explain kcals to me like I’m a second grader 💀

Lmao this post was actually the one that got my last blog t-worded, nothing else I ever posted blew up like this. Weird to see it in the wild.

The results I expect after one good day:

DAY TWO of locking the fuck in again bc I have to lose at least seven pounds by summer 🗣️🗣️

Okay OMAD is still going well, I just wish my family didn’t pay so much attention. Also all the calories today are a little iffy bc a lot of this I couldn’t properly measure.

I ate three bits of pound cake bc I was forced to socially (about 40 cal) and Pad Kra Pao. TBH I have no clue how many calories that was. According to google it could be anything from 200-700+ cals. I’m thinking it’s on the smaller side bc my family uses NO spices but idk.

I was exhausted today (testing while starving is NOT for the weak aka me) so I only walked one mile and did a couple dance workouts. That should have burnt around 150-200 calories. Overall no matter how much the Pad Kra Pao was it was still a deficit, and I’m proud to have kept up these workouts/drinking more water. Tomorrow I have the day off school and I probably won’t be able to walk bc my mom started questioning me about it. She pretty much knows I have an ED so “overworking” myself via exercise will freak her out. Unless I could find a way to sneak around her but we’ll see. Here’s to not binging on my day off ✊

My mom is super suspicious of my ED so I can’t weigh myself near her anymore. I’m locking in this week and going over to my friends house this weekend so I can weigh myself then. If I don’t loose weight by then I think I’ll go insane. Like actually, literally I will crash out and go feral.

Okay I’ve done 24-30 hours without eating but most of that was while sleeping, this is my first time going a full day without eating and I feel AMAZING, completely on top of the world. I should be able to skip eating tomorrow until at least 12 pm? Depending on when my family forces me to eat, but WOW I feel great. So so proud of myself :3

IM SO PROUD I LOST A POUND I THOUGHT FOR SURE I HAD MAINTAINED EHEHEHEHE not to mentioned I weighed myself after eating bc I didn’t have a chance before so maybe I lost even less? Idk probably wistful thinking STILL SUPER PROUD SUMMER GOALS HERE I COME

I’m locking in for m@lnutrition may or whatever tf we’re calling it. I hate this stupid fucking weight I’ve put on I am so beyond depressed lately. I had a major performance today, it went great and all I can think about is that four pounds I gained while trying to reassure my parents that I’m not disordered. They know, I’m sick of gaining weight trying to make them think I’m not. I hate myself so much, I hate that I couldn’t enjoy my performance. I am getting to my goals if it fucking kills me idc

Hey people I’m attempting recovery, so basically see y’all again in like a week and a half