Okay Guys I Need To Lock In. So Far I’m Doing Good Today, Got Back On Track With My Workout And Haven’t

Day three of LOCKING TF IN

Okay so I couldn’t OMAD or workout today bc I was home with my parents and they triggered a binge by making me eat more than I’d like. I’m glad I was kind of able to stop myself but god I hate binging so much. I feel so out of control. It’s much easier to not eat at all than it is to stop. I set a goal of max ten meals per week and I’ve used four so hopefully I can do a 48 hour fast before the weekend or smth.

Consumed: hard to say, max 1300 which is fucking disgusting but tbh I don’t think it was actually that much

Burnt: whatever you naturally burn in a day idk

Overall yes I’m pissed I binged, that sucks so fucking hard. But I’ve been trying to break a binge cycle and this is kind of progress? I guess? It was a lot better than my past binges and it was actually triggered, not just for no reason.

DAY TWO of locking the fuck in again bc I have to lose at least seven pounds by summer 🗣️🗣️

Okay OMAD is still going well, I just wish my family didn’t pay so much attention. Also all the calories today are a little iffy bc a lot of this I couldn’t properly measure.

I ate three bits of pound cake bc I was forced to socially (about 40 cal) and Pad Kra Pao. TBH I have no clue how many calories that was. According to google it could be anything from 200-700+ cals. I’m thinking it’s on the smaller side bc my family uses NO spices but idk.

I was exhausted today (testing while starving is NOT for the weak aka me) so I only walked one mile and did a couple dance workouts. That should have burnt around 150-200 calories. Overall no matter how much the Pad Kra Pao was it was still a deficit, and I’m proud to have kept up these workouts/drinking more water. Tomorrow I have the day off school and I probably won’t be able to walk bc my mom started questioning me about it. She pretty much knows I have an ED so “overworking” myself via exercise will freak her out. Unless I could find a way to sneak around her but we’ll see. Here’s to not binging on my day off ✊

I will NOT binge this week I owe it to myself. I’m soooo close to my goal weight I can feel it.

@na is making me touch starved, I fear. I jerk away every time someone touches me because I don’t want them to feel how f@t I am. Even though literally no one gives a fuck except me.

AFAB anablr is half cis girl “get skinny so you can be a fem feminine girly girl angel girl!” And half trans guy “get skinny bc maybe under all that skin there’s a boys body.” Both are equally as delusional but I’m on both sides so I can’t speak.

Please Reblog is Your Blog is Safe for Non-Binary People.

If my mutuals can’t rb this then we can’t be mutuals

IM SO PROUD I LOST A POUND I THOUGHT FOR SURE I HAD MAINTAINED EHEHEHEHE not to mentioned I weighed myself after eating bc I didn’t have a chance before so maybe I lost even less? Idk probably wistful thinking STILL SUPER PROUD SUMMER GOALS HERE I COME

Okay literally no one is going to see this but I need to vent. TW for an @na related vent ig

Okay my last account got t-worded and like two weeks later my parents confronted me about my ED and have been making me eat a lot more. I got caught in a binge cycle for about two weeks where I’d fast for two days, binge, OMAD, then binge for three days. It was disgusting and easily one of my lowest points with this shit. I’ve just barely been able to break that and been going back to my regular workouts/fasting. Today I managed to sneak away from my parents to weigh myself on a public scale (no scale in house bc my parents are super fucking onto me about this) and I gained FOUR POUNDS. WTF. I’ve never gained more than like two pounds since developing an 3d, I feel so gross. Great motivation but I’m also SO scared for summer break when I’m around my family all the time. Just going to eat as little as possible, give me all your motivation PLEASEEE. Currently 107 lb or 48 KG, feel free to f@t sh@m3 me and shit like that.

I’m actually about to tweak tf out a distant family member is visiting for a couple days and my parents made me eat a LOT more in just the couple hours he’s been here. I’ve been begging my friend to invite me over for a sleepover because I’ve been doing so fucking well lately and loosing weight and this will not mess it up.

My parents finally had the “you’re too skinny and looking too much weight” talk with me, which is obviously not fucking true. Now they’re yelling at me when I try to turn down food and forcing me to eat more. Istg I’m going to go insane. Sorry for being super inactive I just feel trapped as hell, I’m sure I’ve gained.