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I’m locking in for m@lnutrition may or whatever tf we’re calling it. I hate this stupid fucking weight I’ve put on I am so beyond depressed lately. I had a major performance today, it went great and all I can think about is that four pounds I gained while trying to reassure my parents that I’m not disordered. They know, I’m sick of gaining weight trying to make them think I’m not. I hate myself so much, I hate that I couldn’t enjoy my performance. I am getting to my goals if it fucking kills me idc

My mom is super suspicious of my ED so I can’t weigh myself near her anymore. I’m locking in this week and going over to my friends house this weekend so I can weigh myself then. If I don’t loose weight by then I think I’ll go insane. Like actually, literally I will crash out and go feral.

Day three of LOCKING TF IN

Okay so I couldn’t OMAD or workout today bc I was home with my parents and they triggered a binge by making me eat more than I’d like. I’m glad I was kind of able to stop myself but god I hate binging so much. I feel so out of control. It’s much easier to not eat at all than it is to stop. I set a goal of max ten meals per week and I’ve used four so hopefully I can do a 48 hour fast before the weekend or smth.

Consumed: hard to say, max 1300 which is fucking disgusting but tbh I don’t think it was actually that much

Burnt: whatever you naturally burn in a day idk

Overall yes I’m pissed I binged, that sucks so fucking hard. But I’ve been trying to break a binge cycle and this is kind of progress? I guess? It was a lot better than my past binges and it was actually triggered, not just for no reason.

I was literally just thinking about this earlier but yeahhhh my original gw was 110 lb and I’m lighter than that now with a much lighter gw.

haha more memes because im definetly coping

Okay so far this week OMAD is going well but 570 calories in one meal is ridiculous. Could be worse but still

AFAB anablr is half cis girl “get skinny so you can be a fem feminine girly girl angel girl!” And half trans guy “get skinny bc maybe under all that skin there’s a boys body.” Both are equally as delusional but I’m on both sides so I can’t speak.

I hate binging

it makes me feel sick and gross and ugly

when I eat too much I want the feeling to go away as fast as possible

Dear future me, please don’t ever binge

Day one of getting back tf on track

OMAD, my family gave me extra food so it was kind of more OMAD + snacks but it was fruits so it’s fine I guess

Calories consumed: 500 (494 but I’m rounding)

Calories burnt: 160

Calories in total: 340

Guys I’m feeling SO GOOD hopefully I can keep it up :333

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If my mutuals can’t rb this then we can’t be mutuals

Can someone pls explain kcals to me like I’m a second grader 💀