I Must Humbly Bid You ADIEU ::

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Unfamiliarity is as familiar to me as the sight of my own reflection

An image I too often analyze in search for flaws, deficiencies and what I now know as

Divine Imperfections

And certainly, uncertainty consumes my mind and takes over my thoughts like the remnants of a nasty viral infection

So knowingly, however, reluctantly I give into my thoughts of doubt--sending me spiraling into a spiritual and emotional depression

Progressively surrendering to the strategic tactics of the Father of Darkness--

The Master of Deception

Absent mindedly forgetting that he had a hit out on me even before my own conception

However, not forgetting God--He is with me at all times ---omnipresence

Past, Present and future

I felt walked on and talked about even thrown (like a rag doll)

Drugged through life as though I had no existence

But I prove my resistance

By Pondering and mediating on Hebrews 15:5 and 6

He shall never leave nor forsake me

He has taken me beneath is wing

Through pain, suffering

Lies and Confusions

Delusions and turmoil

But I digress and rest and give it to my father

I will lift my hands in praise

and vow to worship Him now, forever and always. 

Fulfillment Costs an Arm and a Leg... Literally!!!

So, as I was going about my normal routine this morning I took a second to stop and watch the local news, which featured an ex-marine who lost both his legs and an arm during combat. 

Upon first glance, I assumed this was going one of those stories that tugged at my heart strings, causing an endless stream of tears to sympathetically flow.  However, the experience was to the contrary. 

Nicholas Kimmel---or Nick for short--- is full of life, hope, energy and passion.  He is relentless in his pursuit for adventure and a good ole adrenaline rush.  Since losing three limbs, Nick has fearlessly wrestled an alligator, kayaked across untamed waters, courageously jumped from a plane, is studiously learning to play the piano and regularly surfs.  College is his next endeavor.  

As I think about Nick and all of his extraordinary feats, I ponder on my own life, and can't help but wonder, "What the hell is keeping me from living out my dreams? What's preventing me from doing what I love? What stands between me and living a completely fulfilled life?"  Then I realize the answer is, "Me and my lame excuses". 

Now, ask yourself that very same question--What is preventing YOU from living a COMPLETELY FULFILLED and TOTALLY AWESOME LIFE?--  REALLY think about the answer. Then.... GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY!!!

:: Do not Awaken Love ...

... Until She So Desires ::

       ~Song of Solomon 2:7

My heart loves who it loves, no matter the time or distance that separates it.

I've always loved hard, loved with loyalty and loved with respect ... only to receive heartache in return.  You see, I awakened love (or what I thought was love) before it's time, which resulted in hurt, pain and me building a wall around my heart that can be demolished only by true, pure, patient, unadulterated, unconditional love.  

So, for now, I will let love sleep ... until a time when she is ready to awaken, rested, refreshed and ready to take on the world.

~ineffablebeauti

::..in this Peculiar Place... *A Snippet*

... Unfamiliarity is as familiar to me as my own reflection ...

&& Certainly Uncertainty infiltrates my mind, consumes my thoughts...

and multiplies ---

Like a Nasty Viral Infection ...

Poems ::

My Poems Haiku--- Love & Seasons Snow falls beautiful How lovely, seasons soon change Joy's now in the sun J.C.I'm not claiming to be al l High and mighty Nor am I living perfectly But J.C. (Jesus Christ)IS the Epitome of Perfection And well... He does live in me I know of the beauty of his Grace and His Mercy He loves unconditionally forgiving, exceedingly AND Abundantly Unlike man, He does not abuse Me Physically, Verbally...Not even Mentally J.C. does not envy And He accepts Me for Me! His love is beauty And is reflected in me His name is J.C.

The Wall ::

Last night I dreamed that you and I, along with a few others were constructing a wall Weird right? 11ft wide on all four sides... Since my ears are still full of the tears that I had cried the night before, And my throat sore, From screaming from a place of pain at God... I could only awake to conclude that the wall we meticulously erected..., was meant to border the parameters of MY HEART... ...no doors...                                                                                  ...no windows... no inlet...no outlet...

So what was there would remain And what was not could by no means enter Last night you helped me build a wall around my HEART....

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Days out here seem to all resemble one another

Nights are soo lonely, that my inner fears are the ones

That I cuddle with, No cover.

See it’s cold when I need warmth

And warm when my hearts cold

Been around for some time

Even when I’m strong

It seems like I’m strongly losing my mind

As I fade I am reminded of the gifts I left home

My heart lies in some hands

And those hands, you happen to own

Since day one, we have grown

You have been you and I have constantly been me

So even when we are separated by 7 seas

You continue to have this special part of me

Inspiration is what you have given

Motivation is what I teach

Because it is the only way, I keep my goals in reach

Never shall I perish, without giving a hard fight

You should really know

That you have a big impact, ON MY LIFE

  - MY THOUGHTS OF YOU-

by: Him <3

Motivation ::

I played and re-played in my head what you and me should be Cuz afterall You're the only one who truly motivates me To live my life and stick with this silly hobby ... Writing my feelings for you in words that form phrases and sometimes sentences, That eventually Make rhythmic melodies ... Often referred to as poetry ... However, I often wonder how and why it was so easy For you to just walk away from me Leaving me alone with only distant memories Of you and me and what I thought should be ... To be continued ....

Claim it, Name it...THEN GO GET IT!

Do you lack confidence? Self esteem? Courage?  Do you desire any (or all) of the aforementioned things?  Are your desires for these things expressed in your petitions and prayers to our Heavenly Father AND are you waiting to see the fruition of God’s promises of these things?  Though God is very much able to GIVE us the desires of our hearts, I truly believe that the manifestation of said desires is contingent upon our own hard work and genuine effort.  If you want confidence, challenge yourself!  What about self esteem?  You need to start believing in YOURSELF!  How about courage?  Face those fears and hidden demons!   Want success?  Take a leap of faith. While God is capable of doing exceedingly, abundantly and above all we can ever ask or think, He will not step off of His Throne of Grace and leave Heaven and smack you on your forehead to impart all the things that you lack!  He will however, meet you as far as you are willing to go.  If you take two steps, God will equip you to supernaturally take the next two.  Don’t just sit around, waiting for your “blessings” to fall from the sky; because in all likelihood, you’ll be waiting forever!  The church teaches that faith operates on a “name it and claim it” premise, leaving out the most important principal:  GO GET IT!!!!  That’s right, Name it, Claim it and GO GET IT!  (Prepare for it, research, save, enroll in a class, exercise, eat right, practice, repeat, challenge, stretch yourself, read, write, listen, learn, etc.)  In other words, make some type of forward motion toward your desired blessing (which you have already claimed your stakes to).  Remain consistent, persistent and determined; then and only then will the blessing will fall into your lap! Peace and Blessings! ~ineffalbebeauti

Love Does Hurt...

I disagree with that statement "love doesn't hurt". No, love is not physically or verbally abusive, but it DOES hurt.

Those who have the truest and deepest love for me (i.e. mother and father) hurt me the most in that they've told me things that I didn't necessarily want to hear.

They've told me things such as, "Your attitude sucks! Change it", "You really should work on becoming more organized", "Stop chasing after those little boys, they don't care about you." , "Turn that TV off and read a book.", "You need to be praying.", "He/She is not good for you, they're just using you.", etc. Those things hurt... they hurt my feelings and they hurt my pride.

You see, I believe that those who truly care tell us things that hurt our feelings...that we really don't want to hear.  They do so because they have our very best interest at heart, believe it or not.  They hurt us--because they know what it is we need in order to become the GREAT and PHENOMENAL versions of ourselves --- the version of ourselves that were were CREATED to be!!!